Sunday, July 23, 2006

Sayonara Sensei

Well think I dun need to practice my jap (scored higher than Tab) haha :P so I'll write in Eigo. Today both of us went for our jap graduation ceremony at the same venue as last year. This time, nobody from our gang gate-crashed for the free food. Yes they have those boneless chicken wings again.

Anyway both of us passed our lvl 3 and are continuing onto lvl 4. And again for the 3rd consecutive year, I got the pen. Tab reckoned that if this continues, they would have to present me with a special award for never missing class for n years! Well it just shows the lack of life on my part, no dates or anything, and so with nothing better to do, might as well go for jap lesson. Learn something. Though there were many times where I had to physically drag myself out of the house to attend lessons, its the journey I dislike, not the class. Hence think I will continue doing that until circumstances forced it. Oh Tab almost got the pen except she had to miss one lesson due to work. Zannenyo.

We were a bit sad to learn that our sensei for 2 years is leaving, going back to Japan, though dun think she is like Fukuda, somewhat no longer employed by the school. Anyway she is there in a pink kimono with sakura flowers. So formal. So before the Lvl 3 were called, the whole bunch of us went forward to take photos of her, like she's some idol cos she was reading out the names of receiptants. Anyway did manage to get 1-2 good shots. Sign, I want to go Japan also. To show our appreciation, we did buy a card and a small gift for her, which Tab forgot to bring. Nvm she would have to make the trip down to hand it over. Near the end, both of us got to take a photo with her. Sensei sayonara.

Well how I wish, I could also say sayonara to my work. Bloody hell, didnt feel like doing it this morning cos have to go for Jap ceremony, then came back around 6pm, mapled a bit, went out with family for dinner, come back maple a bit more, and now dun feel like doing lp. Like wat Tab says, this part about eating into personal time sucks ass. I have not really enjoyed a decent sunday ever since practicum. Now its amost a given that at least half my sunday is used for Lp and powerpoint, resourcing or watever. Think I wont and cant do anything tonight. Having a serious bout of "I dun feel like doing tat right now" syndrome. K will wake up earlier tom to pia out one. And tomorrow I will go to work normally, instead of having to taxi there 2-3hours earlier to mark or piah work. Man, I did that for the entire week. Sian, work too hard, think too much liao. So lets just leave everything to tomorrow.

Now back to piahing my 178 episodes of "Prince of Tennis", currently on disc 2 out of 23 discs. At last, I can understand a bit more of the Jap inside though not all. Well I hope to continue my jap until really really cannot make it. Dun mind if I could persist like this for guitar course and learn continuously and see results but screw that Yamaha...

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Its been a while since my last entry...

Well term has started and I have been 'promoted' to the rank of BT, and am starting as a FT with my own class. I am armed without a float and cast into the sea with tsunami waves in-coming. That sums up the situation very nicely.

I am still struggling with the delivery in class part, unfamilarity with the place, things, syllabus and more, coupled with syallabus to cover, wb to finish and weekly tasks to do and I have almost nearly DROWNED on several occasions. And on top of that. I have to shout fiercely at the class at least once a day. With 4 heavenly kings to tackle. What a paradise? *sign* Having a sore throat now.

So currently taxi early to work to go mark stuff, mark 2+ hours then go to class. After at least 7 periods, the day ends... I drag myself home. Bathe, eat and maple to destress. Tired but sometimes have difficulty sleeping as the brain is going through mentally the things for the next day, or possible lesson plans and even how to handle the misbehaviours... This happens especially when I didnt get to maple enough like today. Lag until I only played less than 1hour and now I cant get to sleep. Then I tend to wake up bloody early, way ahead of my alarm time. Just today I woke up at 630am even though I set for 8.45am. And the sky was still dark but just dunno why I had to wake up. Must be that stupid rubbish truck... Have to push work out of the brains. I have been going early to work since monday, today also, tom also to clear up marking. If I can finish, I am just going in on time on thur n fri, which are both my heavy days.

My cough is not aiding me at all. The cold in the office, coupled with warm classrooms only serves to make me cough like I have TB. I dun cough so much at home or wat but once in aircon place then out to warm places, the coughing fits starts. Surprisingly the P6 class that I took, a concerned student asked if I was seeing the doctor. Incidentally that is the only class I enjoyed. Taking them for HE and when I told them I played Maple, instant connection, cos almost everyone played. So easy for me, they listen and do my work, extra time I let them talk with their friends or talk maple with them. Sweet *cartman style*

Erm form class so far, do enjoy PE with them... Rest am working on it. Trying to be a better BT. Anyway I got some encouragement today ironically. U see in the earlier part of the day, the lesson went pretty good. After recess, during art, it was horrible! Shouted myself hoarse... Then later maths class went decently. The last part was PE and it went pretty well. During the PE, a collegue saw the smiles on their face and wanted to take photo. So I had to repeat the game and let him do so. So some sort of positive encouragement. Another is later VP told me that he observed my class earlier and found it to be good?!? That most are attentive except for a few. Err luckily he didnt see my art class. *Faint* Well I am trying to improve so I dun cause them to fail or wat. And also so that I wont go crazy soon.

I saw my brother on Maple a week back and then I was kinda stressed and sian. He's teaching tuition in a small town. I kinda envy him and have some work fatique so I commented that if I served finish my 3 year bond, I might jolly well quit and join him there. Bum for half a year then start doing some tuition too. You dun really earn as much as spore. Maybe around 1.5-2k RM but hey the cost of living in a small town is pretty low. Could be as low as 500RM depending on how frugal one is. Not a bad idea. Earn and save up for 3 years, change to RM then bring back there to bum and spend and teach some tuition. Wont make it as a rich or famous person but live a simple, not-so-hectic-life. Each day a few hours, rest of the day is yours, drive a small car around town, bum, time to do things you like, sleep until late late. Hmm sounds good. Maybe the half year bumming, I can finally go visit Japan during the cherry blossom period! Wont ever have a chance unless they bloom in June or December.

Its not a rational plan but an idea I am toying with to help ease the pain that I am in. Its a nice daydream to think about what I am going to do then when I am free. Its also nice whenever I look at the blue blue sky and remember the seabreeze in Redang, sitting on top of that cafe with a ice-cold Vodka Strobe and staring out at the crystal blue sea. *Signs*

Monday, July 03, 2006

Not enough sleep? restlessness?

I dunno about the rest, but recently I am suffering from not enough sleep and some sort of restlessness.

During weekdays, I am trying to sleep before 12am and wake up around 8am or earlier. But failed miserably in the waking up part. Even on weekends, after waking up, the only thing I feel like is to go back to sleep. Guess have to work on it to have a more scheduled life and less stress from the seemingly lack of time and sleep. Maybe will have to designate certain early days, and rest is normal days instead of having to go early everyday.

Restlessness seems to stamp from the 'swimming without float' situation tat I am currently in. And also the exponential increase in workload. No resources means I have to make my own and improvise, no worksheets means I have to make/print my own, no idea of where certain lessons are stopped means I have to ask class and find out and makes planning irritating. Basically it translates to ALOT of work on my own time and expense, way beyond the teaching and marking, way beyond the hours, way alot more effort and time on my part than I am somewhat willing to part with. My sister mentioned that when u are happy in a job, you do what u have to do. But if u dislike it, you will be tired cos u fight with yourself everyday. I am not sure which camp I am in, guess I am in the "watashi wa hataraku no ga kiraidesu" camp. Hopefully things will look up when i schedule certain days as long days and certain days as short days.

Therefore on Saturday, after jap and dinner. Just felt too pent-up and wanted to do 'something' but dunno wat it is. In the end I decided to walk along the Spore river from the Esplanade. Yup we walked a very very long walk with Tab giving me a guided tour about certain attractions in each place. (Refer to Tab's blog) for more details. By the time we reached Orchard, we had chalked up 13500 steps for a whopping 5.3km. Yep I have my padeometer on to measure my activity or inactivity. Keeping an eye on my diet also, though exercise seems lacking... After that walk, I felt better, not so pent-up anymore. See how it goes after next week, maybe more walks around Spore.

Just finished my weekly lp after much procrasination until I cannot take it anymore, hanging at the back of my mind that I finally sat down and got it done up. Most of it is done except for a bit of minor details which I have to quickly fill in by tomorrow. Now I have some materials lacking which I have to get (on my own expense) and WS for tomorrow remedial. Sian, I wanna sleep and laze around. But at least I have done something so far. Left is to go over and quickly get something cheap and can be used for tom. Then have to study for jap test. Due to my session, I am not able to make it for the weekday test times at all. So I have to take it alone on the Saturday and in one sitting, think not enough time for retest since graduation is on that very Sunday. Somehow memory not as good so study earlier while I still can.

Oh also hardly time enough to Maple, about 1-1.5hr. Even less when it gets so laggy or I am too tired to do so. Just want to sleep by then. Sign. Is this the way life goes? Hope not. Hmm how to fit in 'lessons' like guitar or martial arts? Hmm lemme think about it.

Friday, June 30, 2006

Week 1 *scratch 1* 9 weeks more.... to T4, 19 weeks more to December holidays

That sums up wat I feel right now. Like Tab, also got burnt a bit on thurs and somewat more 'well-done' today. Still minor misbehaviour and relatively mild. Problem is the class is good one, so there is a stress to keep up the results. Hence misbehaviour have to be handled delicately not as to lose rapport b4 i could even build it up.

Still very very green. ALOT of things and responsibilities that has just kept increasing at an exponential rate daily. Granted monday I got to observe, tuesday I missed cos of induction and wednesday due to NEI induction, thursday was still semi-takeover. Today is the taste of full-load. Sign. Last 3 periods very restless n talkative n inattentiveness. Have to scold and tell and tell. Have to be more firm next week. So many things! Then a very BIG constraint, which I shall not elaborate for fear of being sued. Anyway life's not so great. Am thankful that next week got Youth day public holiday.

I agree with Tab, the fatigue is just building up. Partly for me, was my late sleeping hours. But I pushed sleeping to around12am but I wake at 8am. Usually I get up several times due to the noisy rubbish truck clearing trash around 7am. Duh. Finding it a bit difficult to adjust currently. Cos last time in morning, after class, can mark. Now is I have to go early to mark. Generally I am fresh just b4 I leave. By the time I reach, I am tired, sweating and not-so-fresh anymore. Then mark a few, and then soon is time for class. After ending, there is no time to do much cos the place close around 645pm. I would just pack all the guides home and try to do something the following morning. Thats y I wake up earlier. Cos once I 'm home. Just chuck everything aside and bathe, eat then maple for 1-2hrs then cannot make it liao. Stone stone then a day is over. The next day after wake up, around 9am, try to do something until 10plus, have to eat and get out of home b4 11am. Arrive around 11.55am and then the cycle continues. Hmm how to squeeze time out for any guitar course? Or even exercise? Nvm if others can do it?

I wonder if they really do much? Most are married, pregnant, attached. Not that many singles. Dun even have time for myself now, how to even get anyone? Nvm I'll just remain single and dream of my dream guy.... Easier when drunk to imagine, i guess?

Drinks Recipe - for all drunkards or alcoholic-wannabes.

Get the hint? Ya got tonnes of cocktail recipe. When is Candle coming back? An excuse to celebrate. Where's my beer, think I deserve one after an intense week. Think I still got one left. Last time I went to Cold Storage, bought half a dozen of different beer of different brands. So far my verdict is Miller Draft Beer. Nice when very very chilled, ie put into fridge over 2-3days. Fairly inexpensive at $3.45 compared to a cocktail.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Work Begins *melancholy organ music*

Hail all from the Lands of Maple, where I have happily resided for the past holidays. Long as it might have seem but its never enough I tell you. Einstein's theory of relativity is best illustrated by the holidays. When you are having it, it seems endless, yet when it ended, it seems very very brief. Its never enough! So out from the Maple lands, I have to depart from, tumbling back to the reality of life.

To work.

A new place, new people. Except for the travelling, which incidentally allowed me to be in afternoon session, I am so far okay. Its sucky being a form 'cher but one has to start somewhere. It is the eventual fate of all EMS 'chers. Anyway first day yesterday, I didnt even know the venues, timetable until I stepped in and stuff just came thrown my way. Left, right and centre, until I was lost. So far no induction so I dun even know my way around things. No books, dunno venues, dunno wat work or events happening, where are the markers?. And there u have it, the real face of education out there. So dun complain abt new 'chers, they are just having severe information overload. And it will continue on for the entire week. Lucky for me, I have a breathing space of 1 week. To settle in, get my stuff n also observe the systems that their current 'chers have set up n hope to emulate them then am on my own. Think Tab had it differently. For now, I will just do what I can.

The best part is after work, I left, cos no need to stay on late, as its already evening. Took about an hour to travel back, bathe, eat n mapled. Am trying not to think about work. Yep even watched South Park. That little bit which I had to do, did it up this morning. Lesson preparations not yet cos havent read through, intend to read during observation today. Then no laptop at work, dunno if I want to bring my own, lug it around in a bus-train-bus situation... See if I am issued one soon, if not may have to resort to that. See how. Am not able to do printing as freely, cos of policy. So will observe how others manage and emulated. Its a Monkey see, Monkey do situation. So dun complain abt new 'chers. Its the system.

Last thursday, my entire family went to JB to do more banking. This time with my younger sister, having the same banking issue, and the rest of us tagged along to do shopping. Its a fruitful trip in terms of cartoons n animation. Yes I bought South Park season 5, 6 and 8 and Prince of Tennis (POT) the entire set of 178 episodes. Now I am wondering when to start. So far I am into the 4th season of South Park disc 2. Each season is 3 discs. Ya not to mention gundam seed, destiny which remains unwatched, and POT which remains wrapped and those other anime I bought last time, Q-detective and Black Cat... Hmm maybe if Tab having a drinking session, I'll provide the discs. Dunno when Candle coming back?

That's all for now, got to go eat my lunch and set off for work. In case u wondering, I slept around 1am, woke up at 8.30am and have to get out of home by 11am. Tomorrow NEI have something on, so no need to go work. Am exempted and so tom can sleep late cos its in the afternoon. If anything thats suffering, so far is sleep from watching too much south park and maple cos by the time I reach home, my 2exp timing left with 2.5hrs. Nvm I am not aiming to be no1 mapler anyway. Just play for leisure.

K, till next time.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Back from a trip back to hometown

Been away for a fair bit, being stuck at home all day, mapling or sleeping and went back to Msia for a couple of days. Just reached home and decided to blog about some things...

Maple
The scene goes like this.... imagine a dark, dingy room, full of trash and waste. A laptop lies inside, on for 24hours a day. Seated infront of the laptop is an unkempt person with glasses, busily playing Maple.

Maybe? I dunno. Dont think I am that Otaku yet. But I did do a fair share of staring at the screen. For all my 'hard work', here is the result..

Yup another change of clothes and weapon.


Put on the box and I am the joke of the town again.


Err my 2exp card just expired before I went back to Msia. So now considering how much time I really want to spend on Maple, now that I have achieved my target ie to reach lvl 80 before june holidays over. Oh for those who noticed my Pig, yes ITS ALIVE! Yup for another 2 more months.

Trip back to hometown
Oh I went back to my hometown on Tuesday with my dad to fix up banking problems. Msia has this rule that if ur account is dormant for 1 year, it will be locked, and you have to personally go to activate it via a withdrawal. Hence being away from my hometown for at least 2 years, my account has been locked up. Taking advantage of the school holidays we decided to get it done up before work starts. The plan was to head down to CitySquare and open an account, then go back to hometown and transfer some money over. Henceforth, if need-be, just head down to JB and transfer some money back to the hometown account to keep it active.

So after doing the main business of banking, the rest is up to us. My dad had to ferry my aunt around, so most of the time, I stayed at the house. There is absoulutely nothing to do but I bought some comics back and read them and slept. I managed to stop at 2 shops and bought quite a number of cartoons n comics. Spent about $170Rm in total on SouthPark season 2,3,4, BlackCat (whole), TrinityBlood (whole), Dectective Q(whole), FFVII Advents' Children, Bakuretsu Tenshi(whole). Wanted to buy other animes like Naruto, Prince of Tennis etc but these series are not complete yet, so am just waiting for them to end first. So now I have alot of anime to watch, not to mention Gundam Seed Destiny currently with Tab. Nothing otherwise favourable to talk about the trip.

Maybe worth mentioning for those not so-well-acquainted with local cuisine. Everytime my dad goes back, he would always buy these 3 food items. Definitely not for the timid. He would buy Pig's Forehead, Pig's Tongue & Pig's Ears. Pigs' Ears is quite common but the former are kinda of rare in singapore. So needless to say, he bought it for dinner and my first evening's dinner is mainly rice with the former. How it taste? Actually kinda nice except that the Pig's Forehead is kinda of fat, Pig's Tongue actually lean and chewy, just dun imagine tat u are tonguing the pig in a kiss while u are chewing it. Erm its actually my Nth time eating it. (N is a numeral much greate than 50) Well I never realized that pigs have such fatty foreheads. Never knew that its a delicacy... My dad told me over dinner that my uncle said the best part is that entire piece of meat from the pig's forehead to its snout. Then my dad would point with his chopstick that THAT piece is a nose.. and its the best... (argh.. Lose appetite) Then while I was picking up a piece of tongue to eat, I noticed that there is some white thing on a slice. Picked it up and took a closer look... (its some white foamy thing that is underneath the layer of tongue but is cooked... then some other pieces dun have it... argh... lose appetite) So basically to eat this type of food stuff, the advice is just not to look, pop it into ur mouth n chew. Forget things like cleaniless or the lack of it.... So I ate more baked beans with my rice than pig's forehead or tongue. Also ate more pieces of ears.

Luckily the other meals were more normal like zi char and satay or noodles. Phew. Definitely not for the faint-hearted. Fear-factor Muar-style.

FAT
Yes. I have reached this point of my exisitence where I have this feeling : I am FAT. I feel fat indeed. Noticed my bigger tummy and flabby arms. Think this lack of exercise days should stop soon. Indeed the days of eat, drink, and be merry are OVER! I am going to start with the food intake. Indeed it is the Main cause of fatiness cos most of it is ingested. Not so much the lack of exercise but just increased food intake means weight gain. It will be the first to go.

My resolutions and strict self-imposed dietary rules are as follows:
1) No more desserts after dinner - Desserts are either fruits or just coffee or tea. Nothing else. No more cakes, milkshakes or whatever. Water is ideal too. Desserts especially cakes or ice-cream or sweet stuffs are just one of the most unhealthy n calorie-laiden snacks to have after dinner.

2) If I want to drink beer or alchohol, there will be no Snacks inbetween. Its only drinks n no more snacks. Snacking in-between contributes greatly to the already high intake of calorie from alchohol alone.

3) Eat mainly my 3 main meals in a day exclude snacks as much as possible.

Exercise will be around 2hours for twice a week. Preferably full body workout with cardiovasular.

Am starting on the diet first cos its the easiest aspect to control and yet also the hardest to control.

Yup hopefully in half a years time, will lose all that flab. I am too fat currently.... Sian

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Sumimasen for long abscence

Well to sum up the reason, there is solely one - Maplestory.

To sum up what I was doing, mainly trying very hard to level.

Anyway a new world Ludibrium was launched near the end of may, a toyland, with of course lots of cute toys, various new quests and enemies. Then I joined a guild opened by a Maple friend and became the Jr. Leader, so have to help members etc. So mapling became a bit more complicated than before where previously it was just killing anything else that moves.

During periods in-between training, I set up shop to sell stuff from siblings or guild members. And to help level faster, I bought a 2xexp card, ie my experience doubles. The downside is the fiexed timing, 6-10pm, daily for a month. So unless its important, I would stay home to maple during that time. On days where I had to go out in the evening, I login in the afternoon.

The rest of my life outside of Maple? Induction has begun and if opportunities arise and the talks were not important, me n Tab skipped a couple. For her, she got the flu bug somewhere on last Tuesday or Wednesday. She nursed her torrential running nose and cough. I had to help her buy food for a while. BUT on Friday, after she left for home, I was going to meet my sister around 6pm so I mapled until about 5.30pm. Was already by then having a coughing spell with running nose. Came back from the toilet and had a coughing spell. Something came up my throat and I tried to force it down but to no avail. It came out and onto the floor of the room. It was a HUGE pile of phelgm. It was more than 10cm in diameter after spilling out on the floor. How I know? Cos there were no food bits except for a bit of chocolate, didnt smell of bile and while cleaning it up, I picked up that gooey substance, it didnt break at all, and I had to scoop and dump it into a plastic bag. It took a few turns to get it all in.... Okay okay, TOO MUCH INFORMATION. I did feel better and stopped coughing after that. Told my siblings and mom and they dulely dubbed it "the phelgm cake" cos of the size. Immediately was isolated in my bro's room. He is out for 2 weeks, but sleeps in my sister's room cos my youngest sister has a weakened immunity. I was isolated to prevent infecting others. After vitamin Cs and cough mixtures, I sufficiently recovered on Saturday.

Only to have to see the infectious Tab on Saturday and after the lesson, I felt sickly again... Again isolation, vitamin C, water and cough mixture.

Recovered by thursday to have a long day. A course at new workplace from 8.30-5pm then a wedding dinner after that. There wasnt enough time to go home to change so I headed down to Clark Quay but was too early. I walked around and ended up with 3packs of Koropok and 1 set of anime, BetterMan. The Koropok were the type made of dried vegetable types and roots. My family tried and said that they tasted different from the normal chips and is very nice. Went into a Poh Kim, they are selling off the older sets of anime for $10 a box. So I looked at the very few titles, and saw one that I was curious about but not willing to pay the full price of $29.90 per set. So now for $20, I grabbed it. Clark Quay has changed alot since the last time I went there. It is no longer dinghy but modernized with lots of different pubs, coffeeplaces and restaurants. I headed to PhoneyJade, the venue for the wedding. Met my ex-VP, and she asked me alot of qeustions throughout the night. There was a short fiasco of being given the wrong table number 2 times. I was at table 10 but my ex-vp came and sat with me, but she was at table 13. I went downt to check and was given a new table 16. I went to the table and it was almost fully seated. Decided to just ask if there was another Hellbound at the table. Yes. Another hellbound. So I went down to check again and saw that my surname wasnt in the list so confusion arise if more than one hellbound turned up. In the end, my table number was 13 with all ex-colleagues. Had so many refills of red wine, which is very fragrant once u roll it over the tongue, cos the waiter kept on refilling. Found the name: RiverCrest 2004. I actually lost count of the glasses but reckon that it was at least 6 glasses. BUT no shaking world. The dinner, the fish, fried prawns and dessert are very good. The rest are so so. It was a nice dinnere except when the vp started discussing some work stuff with the chinese hod and that music teacher. Duh. I was crapping with another colleague.

On Friday we had to travel all the way to ITE east to visit the campus so again I hung around with Tab. Needless to say, I somehow got sick again. Besides that, we had pasta at the SaintO or something, cos I wanted to eat pasta. Tab suggested that place saying that the price is only a little bit more but quite nice. So headed there. I asked for their specialty. The owner told me their seafood pasta. I ordered the Spicy Chilli Crab pasta lunch set, for $11.90. Its a steal! The pasta came. There was half a crab, pincer and all, squid, scallop and prawns!!! Verdict: Delicious. Very good indeed. Their soup" Mushroom soup with garlic bread is thick and very tasty. I would like to eat there again. Interestingly when we arrived, it was rather empty, after a short while, it became full. Also some looked over at our table and ordered the Chili Crab pasta. We actually overheard a few asking and pointing at what I was eating. Its a good deal. Then we headed down to the book fair and i bought a magic book. It is quite good and i read, its actually doable. So now I have lots of things to do.

Again met the still-recovering Tab on Saturday and more isolation, vitamin C, water and cough mixture.