On Friday night, I had a shitty dream, literally.
For one who hardly dreams when sleeping, even when it happens, the number of times can be counted within 2 hands.
Yet, on the rare occasion it happened, friday evening/ wee hours of sat morning, one might expect something more decent... Maybe meeting a shuai ge in the dream, going on an adventure, being rich and mighty... anything but Shit?
I woke up from a very short 'nightmare'. There is only 1 scene.
The public toilet.
And I needed to use the toilet urgently but go into first cubicle, got shit. Dunno how some of the shit actually landed on my shoes, gross!
Then head to next cubicle, more Shit and damn smelly. Basically the stench of shit.
I ran down into the next 1-2 remaining cubicles to find more shit littering the place, and the Smell...
And the next thing I woke up.
I noticed a GREAT STENCH of SHIT and it was very very very bad. Huh? I didnt shit my pants or anything. It was very dark still. I was still in disgust from all the shit experience in the dream. Tried to go back to sleep with a bolster over my nose, to block out the stench but cant breathe... So the REAL stench kept me awake. Then I heard a bit like humming sound, checked the time, it was 5.30am. Suspected is those sewage sucking machine.
Man, after another 5mins of ordeal, suddenly I smelt fresh air. Then tried to go back to sleep. Telling myself that I should have a 101 things to dream about and No More SHIT.
I am surprised that my dream is actually linked with reality. I smelt the shit stench and then dreamt out a scenario with the shit stench incorporated inside.
Maybe I should go look at some shuai ge pics b4 I sleep? Maybe can dream of them *wishfully thinking*
Its kinda rare that I remember my dreams cos they are so few and rare. But this one being only 1 scene is easily recalled. Literally a SHIT dream that is full of shit.
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Home-based Tuition
Today I finally dragged my ass out of the home by around 10am plus to go swimming. Had deferred from Mon and Wed until now. Then Sunday is gym. Have to really try to make a 3rd slot out to ensure there is higher propensity for achieving the 3500 calorie per kg deficit.
BUT before I count my calories. I did already SINNED on the drinks front. Man 5 logan martinis(Vodka) on Monday and then a Lychee-Gin on Wednesday. And immense pigging out on Wed... Hope to rectify the calories by eating plainly from Thur to Sunday.
Then I will do a weigh-in on Monday.
I just got a sms from one of the tuition centre offering home based tution but they are like the other agenciese, take 1/2 of first month, which is fine with me. Then I took this opportunity to one-shot register at 4 such agencies. I had saved their websites but didnt act upon them cos I didnt want it to clash with my search for the full-time position. But since nothing is forth-coming, I had taken a break from job serach for a good 1.5 weeks already. My plan was to start home based after CNY, but if any thing comes in, I can start anytime, provided that those timing dont clash with my lessons. I did black-out 3 days that are no-touch.
I hope that I can find another flow of income through work/employment that can be used to finance my daily living expenses, insurance commitments and also to save up a portion of it that can be used to add-on to my Investible reserve that is used mainly for stocks investment. Currently I dont think my Investible reserve is big enough to generate anything near to my previous annual income level. The way about it is to grow it dually, through additonal funds from savings and gains from stocks.
So see how that goes. And I am still monitoring the stock market. My dad mentioned that it is downtrend, though there is a retracement, so dont think that the Retracement is the Rebound. I am monitoring closely to firstly make some decisions, think through my targets, how to achieve and also monitor the price movements. Anyway whehter is good time or not, I cant say cos its up to your judgement.
BUT before I count my calories. I did already SINNED on the drinks front. Man 5 logan martinis(Vodka) on Monday and then a Lychee-Gin on Wednesday. And immense pigging out on Wed... Hope to rectify the calories by eating plainly from Thur to Sunday.
Then I will do a weigh-in on Monday.
I just got a sms from one of the tuition centre offering home based tution but they are like the other agenciese, take 1/2 of first month, which is fine with me. Then I took this opportunity to one-shot register at 4 such agencies. I had saved their websites but didnt act upon them cos I didnt want it to clash with my search for the full-time position. But since nothing is forth-coming, I had taken a break from job serach for a good 1.5 weeks already. My plan was to start home based after CNY, but if any thing comes in, I can start anytime, provided that those timing dont clash with my lessons. I did black-out 3 days that are no-touch.
I hope that I can find another flow of income through work/employment that can be used to finance my daily living expenses, insurance commitments and also to save up a portion of it that can be used to add-on to my Investible reserve that is used mainly for stocks investment. Currently I dont think my Investible reserve is big enough to generate anything near to my previous annual income level. The way about it is to grow it dually, through additonal funds from savings and gains from stocks.
So see how that goes. And I am still monitoring the stock market. My dad mentioned that it is downtrend, though there is a retracement, so dont think that the Retracement is the Rebound. I am monitoring closely to firstly make some decisions, think through my targets, how to achieve and also monitor the price movements. Anyway whehter is good time or not, I cant say cos its up to your judgement.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Best way to drive away Monday blues...
It was kinda spontaneous Monday.
Dad eventually didnt head to Malaysia, and I didnt head swimming cos I was too hungry. Will go on wednesday. I was looking at shares, online and ate lunch. Then headed out for driving. Finally realized why Feb is so full, almost 0 slots, cos the older batch of learners who are trying to pass with parking with poles. So they are trying to clear. Learners like me who just learnt lane change today, is up for the parking with no poles. And all along, I was thinking that these kiasu people want to drive their new cars on Chinese New Year's Day >_<"
Then called and checked if Tab was free. Cos I was sick of going to ION and even Marina square area, I suggested Junction 8. It was just 12 stops from the Bukit Gombak MRT, which is the North-East Line. And I was learning at the Bukit Batok Driving School, at Bukit Gombak. So sat the rather short half hr ride there. I dressed in my usual except I wore jeans instead of 3/4 and suddenly I tio 2 times survey and donation thingy mere minutes after stepping out of the MRT... So its the jeans that makes the person?
Met up with Tab and FH, and ate at a HK cafe. The fried rice is good, the tempura brinja and fried wanton also very good. FH left after dinner, sick and jap lesson. Me and Tab walked around. As it was still early, around 8.30am, walked back to her place.
I asked her if she got ice at home. She had. So I just bought a can of longan from the provision shop cos no lychee and opened that. Made Longan Martini for both of us while watching cable tv. Tab's parents came back and were surprised to see me but soon offered the CNY snacks they had brought back from Potian. Tab and I chatted and drank, then I made more. Martini, poured not shaken. After 4 martinis each, we still didnt feel the effect of the vodka. Finally after the last glass, 5th cos finished longans by then, felt some of the effects. I left just before 10pm. Was feeling comfortable on the bus, tempted to doze but listened to radio to the Muttons for laughs. I made it back home safely by 11pm.
It really felt like those fri/sat drinking parties except that it was in Reality, a Monday evening.
Now since tomorrow I am heading in to do flexible work, see if Tab had a hangover. Then would see her hiding out at office too.
Dad eventually didnt head to Malaysia, and I didnt head swimming cos I was too hungry. Will go on wednesday. I was looking at shares, online and ate lunch. Then headed out for driving. Finally realized why Feb is so full, almost 0 slots, cos the older batch of learners who are trying to pass with parking with poles. So they are trying to clear. Learners like me who just learnt lane change today, is up for the parking with no poles. And all along, I was thinking that these kiasu people want to drive their new cars on Chinese New Year's Day >_<"
Then called and checked if Tab was free. Cos I was sick of going to ION and even Marina square area, I suggested Junction 8. It was just 12 stops from the Bukit Gombak MRT, which is the North-East Line. And I was learning at the Bukit Batok Driving School, at Bukit Gombak. So sat the rather short half hr ride there. I dressed in my usual except I wore jeans instead of 3/4 and suddenly I tio 2 times survey and donation thingy mere minutes after stepping out of the MRT... So its the jeans that makes the person?
Met up with Tab and FH, and ate at a HK cafe. The fried rice is good, the tempura brinja and fried wanton also very good. FH left after dinner, sick and jap lesson. Me and Tab walked around. As it was still early, around 8.30am, walked back to her place.
I asked her if she got ice at home. She had. So I just bought a can of longan from the provision shop cos no lychee and opened that. Made Longan Martini for both of us while watching cable tv. Tab's parents came back and were surprised to see me but soon offered the CNY snacks they had brought back from Potian. Tab and I chatted and drank, then I made more. Martini, poured not shaken. After 4 martinis each, we still didnt feel the effect of the vodka. Finally after the last glass, 5th cos finished longans by then, felt some of the effects. I left just before 10pm. Was feeling comfortable on the bus, tempted to doze but listened to radio to the Muttons for laughs. I made it back home safely by 11pm.
It really felt like those fri/sat drinking parties except that it was in Reality, a Monday evening.
Now since tomorrow I am heading in to do flexible work, see if Tab had a hangover. Then would see her hiding out at office too.
Monday, February 01, 2010
Jan 2010 expenses and income
I did mention that I was actively monitoring my expenses and spending using the $20-$25 daily limit. Also excluding 2 expense items separately, namely Driving and Guitar.
After 31 days of recording, usually 5mins at the end of the day, I have gotten the amount. At this point, I havent done analysis to it, except total the figures.
Total about => $592.52
Driving => $300
Guitar 2mths => $240
Total about $1132.52
Given my original budget figures was $750 expenses, $120 guitar and $200 driving for a grand total of $1070.
The fact that I had pre-paid for the guitar (cos they collect for next month) and topped up driving (still have balance of $150 in system for booking) meant that I have successfully kept to my budget.
The amount I spend is not a lot cos I am not working daily and if I can, eat meals at home. So for those without the option but cos u are working, can afford a higher budget.
What is inside my $592.58 amount?
Ezy link top-up $70
Hp $31
Cable tv and internet (after sharing out) $45.50
Cab ride $50
Interview shoes $74
Toto $10
Grocery of 2 x lychee, 2 x miller beer, 1 x Margarita mixer etc
With meals eaten out quite often but at cheaper alternatives, still there is Soupspoon, ramen, ice cream, green tea latte, Old town coffee.
So its not so much of NOT eating out but changing to cheaper alternatives, example coffee shop, food court or just other alternatives. Of course the option of being able to eat at home makes up for the reduced meals eaten outside. Even if that is not possible, eating out at coffee shop, food courts and hawker is cheaper.
My income for flexible work so far is $1k. It more or less off-sets this month's expenditure.
As for my shares, for 2010 so far, I have sold off most of my Singapore shares for cash and made slightly more than 2 months of my previous nett pay. I dont intend to use that to top up my living expense account. I will re-channel them to look for more opportunities to buy. It would mean monitoring the market more consistently and alot of decision making again.
So although my NETT picture for income and expenses is positive for 2 months, I still have to think about looking for work, getting income flows. Also there are many more years to live out... so yes I have more important things on my mind minding my own affairs than to be too overly concern about other's affairs.
Think I will go swimming on Wed instead. Today is too hungry.
After 31 days of recording, usually 5mins at the end of the day, I have gotten the amount. At this point, I havent done analysis to it, except total the figures.
Total about => $592.52
Driving => $300
Guitar 2mths => $240
Total about $1132.52
Given my original budget figures was $750 expenses, $120 guitar and $200 driving for a grand total of $1070.
The fact that I had pre-paid for the guitar (cos they collect for next month) and topped up driving (still have balance of $150 in system for booking) meant that I have successfully kept to my budget.
The amount I spend is not a lot cos I am not working daily and if I can, eat meals at home. So for those without the option but cos u are working, can afford a higher budget.
What is inside my $592.58 amount?
Ezy link top-up $70
Hp $31
Cable tv and internet (after sharing out) $45.50
Cab ride $50
Interview shoes $74
Toto $10
Grocery of 2 x lychee, 2 x miller beer, 1 x Margarita mixer etc
With meals eaten out quite often but at cheaper alternatives, still there is Soupspoon, ramen, ice cream, green tea latte, Old town coffee.
So its not so much of NOT eating out but changing to cheaper alternatives, example coffee shop, food court or just other alternatives. Of course the option of being able to eat at home makes up for the reduced meals eaten outside. Even if that is not possible, eating out at coffee shop, food courts and hawker is cheaper.
My income for flexible work so far is $1k. It more or less off-sets this month's expenditure.
As for my shares, for 2010 so far, I have sold off most of my Singapore shares for cash and made slightly more than 2 months of my previous nett pay. I dont intend to use that to top up my living expense account. I will re-channel them to look for more opportunities to buy. It would mean monitoring the market more consistently and alot of decision making again.
So although my NETT picture for income and expenses is positive for 2 months, I still have to think about looking for work, getting income flows. Also there are many more years to live out... so yes I have more important things on my mind minding my own affairs than to be too overly concern about other's affairs.
Think I will go swimming on Wed instead. Today is too hungry.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Disappointed, Feeling rejected and Standing up again
Disappointed
The job search is not going anywhere. On appearance, all are a waste of time. I had gone for about 9-10 education related ones.
Of them, so far I had 3 offers which I turned down. The first being that 2k for 6 days, the second being 2.5k for 5 days but no weekend and public holiday, and the 3rd being the $30 per hr but prepare my own materials but in the end the scheduled classes makes up only 6hrs a week for 4 days of work. All are not what I had expected nor do they appear decent. Well at least 3 out of 10 get offers, be it poor or good offer.
What really diasppointed me was the centre, which had arranged for a trial lesson. Then maybe work out a schedule. Postponed from last Sat to this Wed. Then I headed down on Wed and was told they forgot to contact me about postponing. Imagine I reached inside for less than 5mins, told the news that they forgot. And besides a word "sorry", there wasnt any effort made to make some sort of arrangement except next wed cos I told them I couldnt make on friday. I had told FH I was going in, even though FH had indicated to me that I could leave anytime but I had already DID my part by turning up. You are the one at fault for changing on me. Then less than 5mins after arriving, I left to go home. Of course I grumbled at the bus stop, calling Candle to complain.
The next day I went for the Shanghai interview at Hougang area. Got to get up earlier and head out and travel longer to reach. Took a while to finally locate and find the place cos took the feeder bus and it took damn long for a ride. Anyway after the interview, I headed straight back to MRT and headed to driving school. I had gotten a driving slot finally and this sudden, last minute interview came in suddenly. Only consolation is that they dont clash. Arrived at driving centre, without having time to eat and did almost 100 mins full of driving with no stops. After the lesson, was so zombified. Met up with Tab and Candle for dinner and then Quetzal came and we walked around a bit.
Feeling rejected
Reached home, checked email and saw that tuition centre that postponed on me, sent me an email to 'cancel' me cos they found a part time, and I was looking for more full-time so they dont want to hold me back. PUI PUI PUI. After reading that, all my foul language came out. Usually I dont use the cb, lj, fcuk b1tch but all those came out. Didnt want to fuss family, so just sian and cuss that centre and that b1tch. Then later on, after checking the stocks, I went to bed cursing and swearing still. Then watched a bit of Naruto anime and then slept earlier at 1am cos I needed to work the next day. Was feeling the effect of sleeplessness on Wed evening.
Standing up again
Woke up for flexible work. Before I headed in, I logged into stocks to key in 2-3 sell orders. Then when market opened, one went through. The Irritating part is that I am selling now after the market has already turned, so the gains are lower than what it could have been. About halved. But the consolation is that I still make gains, halved but still income for me, compared to current inflow. So I take consolation in that. By the time, I reached office, 2nd order executed. I count myself lucky that I had sold in the morning cos prices stayed lower than what I had keyed in for the entire day. So recover capital to wait for more drops. I still have my CapMall, CapMall Asia, Capland. My Kland is a loss. My cpf counters are still there cos those counters, some didnt fall as much, some are not as affected, even those affected, little bit of gains after the gains vapourized does not justify me selling cos few lots. Care more about my cash portfolio cos more money due to more lots.
So a painful lesson about monitoring for turns instead of waiting for secondary indicators to confirm it, cos by then market already turned down and part of the gains have vapourised.
Actually I feel better today. Cos of good, deep sleep. I woke up almost forgetting why I had set my alarm. Except tio some food poisoning aka stomache and gastric from poisionous roti prata if not is the coffee. The sale of the stocks to realise actual profits helped perk me up too. Nevermind about feelings of regret, if 早知道就没有乞丐 and everyone is millionaire already. So just move on. I can sulk over it but I limit myself to a couple of days and move on. I am sure there will be other opportunities to buy back and sell again. Just have to be patient and refrain.
The job search is not going anywhere. On appearance, all are a waste of time. I had gone for about 9-10 education related ones.
Of them, so far I had 3 offers which I turned down. The first being that 2k for 6 days, the second being 2.5k for 5 days but no weekend and public holiday, and the 3rd being the $30 per hr but prepare my own materials but in the end the scheduled classes makes up only 6hrs a week for 4 days of work. All are not what I had expected nor do they appear decent. Well at least 3 out of 10 get offers, be it poor or good offer.
What really diasppointed me was the centre, which had arranged for a trial lesson. Then maybe work out a schedule. Postponed from last Sat to this Wed. Then I headed down on Wed and was told they forgot to contact me about postponing. Imagine I reached inside for less than 5mins, told the news that they forgot. And besides a word "sorry", there wasnt any effort made to make some sort of arrangement except next wed cos I told them I couldnt make on friday. I had told FH I was going in, even though FH had indicated to me that I could leave anytime but I had already DID my part by turning up. You are the one at fault for changing on me. Then less than 5mins after arriving, I left to go home. Of course I grumbled at the bus stop, calling Candle to complain.
The next day I went for the Shanghai interview at Hougang area. Got to get up earlier and head out and travel longer to reach. Took a while to finally locate and find the place cos took the feeder bus and it took damn long for a ride. Anyway after the interview, I headed straight back to MRT and headed to driving school. I had gotten a driving slot finally and this sudden, last minute interview came in suddenly. Only consolation is that they dont clash. Arrived at driving centre, without having time to eat and did almost 100 mins full of driving with no stops. After the lesson, was so zombified. Met up with Tab and Candle for dinner and then Quetzal came and we walked around a bit.
Feeling rejected
Reached home, checked email and saw that tuition centre that postponed on me, sent me an email to 'cancel' me cos they found a part time, and I was looking for more full-time so they dont want to hold me back. PUI PUI PUI. After reading that, all my foul language came out. Usually I dont use the cb, lj, fcuk b1tch but all those came out. Didnt want to fuss family, so just sian and cuss that centre and that b1tch. Then later on, after checking the stocks, I went to bed cursing and swearing still. Then watched a bit of Naruto anime and then slept earlier at 1am cos I needed to work the next day. Was feeling the effect of sleeplessness on Wed evening.
Standing up again
Woke up for flexible work. Before I headed in, I logged into stocks to key in 2-3 sell orders. Then when market opened, one went through. The Irritating part is that I am selling now after the market has already turned, so the gains are lower than what it could have been. About halved. But the consolation is that I still make gains, halved but still income for me, compared to current inflow. So I take consolation in that. By the time, I reached office, 2nd order executed. I count myself lucky that I had sold in the morning cos prices stayed lower than what I had keyed in for the entire day. So recover capital to wait for more drops. I still have my CapMall, CapMall Asia, Capland. My Kland is a loss. My cpf counters are still there cos those counters, some didnt fall as much, some are not as affected, even those affected, little bit of gains after the gains vapourized does not justify me selling cos few lots. Care more about my cash portfolio cos more money due to more lots.
So a painful lesson about monitoring for turns instead of waiting for secondary indicators to confirm it, cos by then market already turned down and part of the gains have vapourised.
Actually I feel better today. Cos of good, deep sleep. I woke up almost forgetting why I had set my alarm. Except tio some food poisoning aka stomache and gastric from poisionous roti prata if not is the coffee. The sale of the stocks to realise actual profits helped perk me up too. Nevermind about feelings of regret, if 早知道就没有乞丐 and everyone is millionaire already. So just move on. I can sulk over it but I limit myself to a couple of days and move on. I am sure there will be other opportunities to buy back and sell again. Just have to be patient and refrain.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Stock results 2009 and Lessons in 2010
Just to do a book closure of my stocks for last year.
Made SGD$19.6k, RM$10.3k and CPF$5.7k.
Cash about $23.9k but some of these is taxable especially for those REITs distribution.
I have been unemployed since early Aug, meaning about 5 months plus including Jan. Though I did work flexible for Jan.
I am feeling kinda sian. Last year was a good year indeed esp on the stock market front. The gains helped me make the decision to leave easier.
But cos stock prices have gone up quite a bit, so this year is not that easy to earn something of this figure. For 2010, I have made 4 trades, 2 buys, 2 sells in Jan, not all of them good decisions. But the least is that I didnt lose capital in overall terms. The cost is wasted opportunity and lower gains ba.
Then after the Capricon effect, aka since Last Thursday, the Stock market has been diahorring down. As I am still mainly invested, I am seeing gains evaporate. Man I need to learn to read the market and am starting again reading that Chinese wave theory book again... only at chpt 2.
This quick downturn in prices has prompted me to sell off as prices are going down.
WHY?
Cos if prices are headed down south, I wanna to have capital on hand to take advantage of the lower prices. Then I actually bought in some... another judgement mistake, cos yesterday bought, today fell lower. Must remember this lesson about buying in a falling market... Getting a bit rusty and reckless. Need to remember this.
So this waiting and seeing prices going down south, meant that I COULD have earned higher profits esp before prices started going down. It meant that IF I had made the decision to sell just a few days earlier, I could have made several hundreds of dollars extra, and not the paltry sums I am getting... Signz another lesson to learn and remember about being more vigilant about changes and also making a selling decision earlier.
Hope the job front can fare better, then I dont need to monitor so intensely and can afford to put into more middle to long term investment.
Made SGD$19.6k, RM$10.3k and CPF$5.7k.
Cash about $23.9k but some of these is taxable especially for those REITs distribution.
I have been unemployed since early Aug, meaning about 5 months plus including Jan. Though I did work flexible for Jan.
I am feeling kinda sian. Last year was a good year indeed esp on the stock market front. The gains helped me make the decision to leave easier.
But cos stock prices have gone up quite a bit, so this year is not that easy to earn something of this figure. For 2010, I have made 4 trades, 2 buys, 2 sells in Jan, not all of them good decisions. But the least is that I didnt lose capital in overall terms. The cost is wasted opportunity and lower gains ba.
Then after the Capricon effect, aka since Last Thursday, the Stock market has been diahorring down. As I am still mainly invested, I am seeing gains evaporate. Man I need to learn to read the market and am starting again reading that Chinese wave theory book again... only at chpt 2.
This quick downturn in prices has prompted me to sell off as prices are going down.
WHY?
Cos if prices are headed down south, I wanna to have capital on hand to take advantage of the lower prices. Then I actually bought in some... another judgement mistake, cos yesterday bought, today fell lower. Must remember this lesson about buying in a falling market... Getting a bit rusty and reckless. Need to remember this.
So this waiting and seeing prices going down south, meant that I COULD have earned higher profits esp before prices started going down. It meant that IF I had made the decision to sell just a few days earlier, I could have made several hundreds of dollars extra, and not the paltry sums I am getting... Signz another lesson to learn and remember about being more vigilant about changes and also making a selling decision earlier.
Hope the job front can fare better, then I dont need to monitor so intensely and can afford to put into more middle to long term investment.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Grocery shopping can be fun
One can never realize that grocery shopping with parents can be fun sometimes. It's something I hadn't really done much cos the 4 months, I was out almost daily on the week days and IMM is crowded on the weekends and we avoid like plague. Then the last month sparked all the job interviews plus my normal classes and driving and exercise so also not home free on most weekdays.
Today I am free... Have guitar in the evening cos last sat got postponed. Then was thinking of going for flexible work nut FH is not around in the morning, so if nothing pops up, will go in on Friday. So I was at home, woke up earlier at 8.30 to adjust body clock. Started looking at the share market at 9. Today quite some fall but of course not as bad as the previous fall in end 2008. I am still mainly invested but I sold a bit, so am looking for some trades for cash and some thing longer or trades for cpf. At one point there was a rather intense fall. To cut long story short, I made 2 trades, one cash, one cpf. hope market don't crash on me.
Then went grocery shopping with both parents at Giant IMM. One would think it boring but I quite enjoy walking around a rather empty Giant. Don't feel any urge to buy the clothes or electronic stuff but once we reached the food section, man I had to really controly myself. Imagine pushing trolley to the veg section, one would dismiss it saying that there is nothing I would be interested in. Wrong!
I was suddenly looking at the sweet potatoes, sweet corn and watermelon. Thinking how it's been a while since I ate those. Then walk to frozen section lagi worse. I saw the fillets, wedges, wanton, pop corn chicken, prata, tempuras and all are tempting though they are frozen cos the amount of cooking is minimal. But I made it out empty handed. I was being reminded constantly of the steamboat at krynnder's home on New Year eve. That was a good hot pot I hadn't had in quite a while.
We walked to the canned section and I sucumb to 2 cans of lychee, 1 can of mango. Saw many flavours of instant noodles and I bought curry magee for myself. Then picked up a bottle of sweet pickled vegetables and a yellow kaya. Those for common consumption. Man when I passed the meat section, I was restraining against buying the packs of Taiwan sausage or the hotdogs and stuff. At the Chinese new year goodies area, I bought 2 packs of sweet mainly for temple going. But then I saw and am reminded of some food that I really like and alot is available during cny period. Things like chilli tapioca, egg cakes, rice biscuit and more.
Man, so much desire for food but so little desire for electronics or clothes is not good for my efforts to have calorie deficit to lose weight. I been restraining and started monitoring my food and drinks intake starting yesterday. More effort put into the calorie intake control part. Will power mist persist. Same for will power to exercise.
On the job front, I pushed away that one assigment. Haven't sent out resumes since last week. Will try to work on doing. I wanna be selective and also not want to waste my time and effort going for wasted interviews. Also been thinking and sometimes worry won't be employed and earn minimum wages... There are still many years left in this life, cannot imagine earning minimum wages for the rest of the life. Unfounded fears but it's something I think about at the back of my head. Also a deadline to go into home based tuition. Cos if I keep waiting around for perm offer but nothing is happening, I should start home based ones otherwise just doing nothing much. Though I still have jap, guitar and driving, jap is not that intensive cos I don't need to revise daily. Guitar also interest is waning. Driving, so far into 17th practical lesson. Whole of feb is booked. Sian. So I am left with looking at shares, pia anime like otaku which I can do at night, going exercise which I try to do twice a week. Not really much action. Of course I have started doing up some own resources but not so easy and takes time to reach somewhere.
The problem is that somehow I feel I am heading nowhere. Sign... I better print out my list of 100 things to do, start doing them, maybe even do my cooking experiments and forays. How to balance all these with the jobsearch. Guess after all the low, lousy offers and no answers, I am aflicted with some worries and anxieties. The dust of daily life has covered thyself that even the beautiful clouds in the sunny skies. cannot uplift.
Today I am free... Have guitar in the evening cos last sat got postponed. Then was thinking of going for flexible work nut FH is not around in the morning, so if nothing pops up, will go in on Friday. So I was at home, woke up earlier at 8.30 to adjust body clock. Started looking at the share market at 9. Today quite some fall but of course not as bad as the previous fall in end 2008. I am still mainly invested but I sold a bit, so am looking for some trades for cash and some thing longer or trades for cpf. At one point there was a rather intense fall. To cut long story short, I made 2 trades, one cash, one cpf. hope market don't crash on me.
Then went grocery shopping with both parents at Giant IMM. One would think it boring but I quite enjoy walking around a rather empty Giant. Don't feel any urge to buy the clothes or electronic stuff but once we reached the food section, man I had to really controly myself. Imagine pushing trolley to the veg section, one would dismiss it saying that there is nothing I would be interested in. Wrong!
I was suddenly looking at the sweet potatoes, sweet corn and watermelon. Thinking how it's been a while since I ate those. Then walk to frozen section lagi worse. I saw the fillets, wedges, wanton, pop corn chicken, prata, tempuras and all are tempting though they are frozen cos the amount of cooking is minimal. But I made it out empty handed. I was being reminded constantly of the steamboat at krynnder's home on New Year eve. That was a good hot pot I hadn't had in quite a while.
We walked to the canned section and I sucumb to 2 cans of lychee, 1 can of mango. Saw many flavours of instant noodles and I bought curry magee for myself. Then picked up a bottle of sweet pickled vegetables and a yellow kaya. Those for common consumption. Man when I passed the meat section, I was restraining against buying the packs of Taiwan sausage or the hotdogs and stuff. At the Chinese new year goodies area, I bought 2 packs of sweet mainly for temple going. But then I saw and am reminded of some food that I really like and alot is available during cny period. Things like chilli tapioca, egg cakes, rice biscuit and more.
Man, so much desire for food but so little desire for electronics or clothes is not good for my efforts to have calorie deficit to lose weight. I been restraining and started monitoring my food and drinks intake starting yesterday. More effort put into the calorie intake control part. Will power mist persist. Same for will power to exercise.
On the job front, I pushed away that one assigment. Haven't sent out resumes since last week. Will try to work on doing. I wanna be selective and also not want to waste my time and effort going for wasted interviews. Also been thinking and sometimes worry won't be employed and earn minimum wages... There are still many years left in this life, cannot imagine earning minimum wages for the rest of the life. Unfounded fears but it's something I think about at the back of my head. Also a deadline to go into home based tuition. Cos if I keep waiting around for perm offer but nothing is happening, I should start home based ones otherwise just doing nothing much. Though I still have jap, guitar and driving, jap is not that intensive cos I don't need to revise daily. Guitar also interest is waning. Driving, so far into 17th practical lesson. Whole of feb is booked. Sian. So I am left with looking at shares, pia anime like otaku which I can do at night, going exercise which I try to do twice a week. Not really much action. Of course I have started doing up some own resources but not so easy and takes time to reach somewhere.
The problem is that somehow I feel I am heading nowhere. Sign... I better print out my list of 100 things to do, start doing them, maybe even do my cooking experiments and forays. How to balance all these with the jobsearch. Guess after all the low, lousy offers and no answers, I am aflicted with some worries and anxieties. The dust of daily life has covered thyself that even the beautiful clouds in the sunny skies. cannot uplift.
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