How to make a yenn

Ingredients: 5 parts success 5 parts silliness 3 parts energy

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little curiosity if desired!

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How to make a internal bleeding

Ingredients: 5 parts pride 5 parts self-sufficiency 1 part joy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of caring

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How to make a yennhellbound

Ingredients: 1 part intelligence 3 parts humour 3 parts

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lovability

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How to make a monkey hellbound

Ingredients: 5 parts anger 5 parts humour 5 parts

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of caring and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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Hehehe... Just an interesting quiz i plagurise from flyingmonyet's blog. Its fun to try out all my nicks and compare it to what I was then.....Well its alot more 'relevant' given my current Uni friends are drinkers.

This weekend has been okay so far... I really think I am becoming workaholic, while I still feel very anxious abt my lack of perm or contract jobs, at least I am not rotting at home. Well frankly, if there is any way whereby I can not work, yet have a constant cash in-flows then maybe I wont want to work for money. My complaint is the lack of money. I want to get higher paying jobs... So far through my assignments, I have gained some exposure but there are 2 aspects lacking. One is the full set of responsibilities cum training AND most importantly the PAY and benefits, or the lack of it. Its enough to support me but not nearly enough for so many other things and expenses... If I have to work long hours, little rest and lack of social life, I might as well do it for a much much higher pay. Just wished lobangs will come my way for a change. Sign..

Well today really had some good but expensive food, a treat from Eric, a jap-class friend whom me and my friends helped out. Crystal Jade Kitchen and Spinelles and a ride back home and a nice long and interesting (omoshiroi) chat. Well just got to kambatte for next week's Jap exams to proceed on to level 2. One more step closer to my life-long dream of the language, going to Japan, living and breathing the air over there. Hopefully I can find what I seek... (saving up is another...)

At this point, still very unsettled... with regards to employment and income, as well as reality, dreams and expectations. Many have told me that at my age, 23, its too young... but I feel old somewhat. My bright-eyed views are tapered by the experiences I had, and still are. But I still hold stubbornly to my dreams and goals. They are the light to guide my actions for the dark uncertain times and for the future.

I wonder if self-delusion or selective perception is at work. Anyway there is only one life, I wish to live to the fullest. Yet at this point, I am not adhering to it, always holding back for another time in the future. Sometimes I wonder if its possible for me to lose control completely and be completely truthful to myself. Hmm... so far I havent really let loose, except on occassions. I guess once was when me and some good friends went to Zouk some years back, and times when I feel seriously pent up, that I would suspend judgement and thinking, and just do what immediately comes to mind. Eg: "I want to go out", okay and I'm out of the house before I know it. Basically whatever I want to do then and there (except killing the person or anything illegal) , I would do it. Think the proper term is 'fed-up'.

I used to be more of a thinker but through my Uni days and bit of work, I am becoming a doer. I plan my actions then implement according to the battle plan. Want to be an even more spontaneous person. Assertive and respected. Want to experience much more of the world out there and learn so that I will grow to be more than what I am. Still not complete as a person.