It started when I entered NEI, being so busy daily from the long hours that I hardly go to the gym. Practicum was no better, cos it meant staying late until 4plus and spending many hours planning lessons for observations, didnt go at all. Then going back to NEI for the final month before posting, wasnt any better. And eventually being posted and now its been another year. A total of 2yrs without a proper gym workout, without a proper and regular exercise regime. It meant by now, my physique has totally collapsed and sagged. Last year I still had some form, now its totally wasted.
Eating alot nowadays also dont seem to be helping. Weekdays irregular meals, sometimes extra meals before dinner and weekends eating 'better food' with friends (though I have cut down alot on the desert). The 4day course I have been attending saw me eating up to 6 meals a day. Morning breakfast, then morning tea, then lunch, then afternoon tea, then snack and dinner. Man I can feel my arteries clogging. Then go back to work, they always pack lunch for us, which means I cant go and get my own. Mostly halah food eg chicken rice with curry blah blah, argh my arteries. The only redeeming point is I often dun finish what they pack, cos its too heavy (taste-wise or oily), at times I just eat a few mouthfuls then throw.
And I am the proud owner of a akira DVD player on vesak day. Bought it for $44.90, to hook up with the TV in my room (bro's room) so that that I dun have to fight for the DVD with my dad who is watching tv outside. Can just watch anytime, lying on my bed... Didnt get an antenna cos the current tv programs sucks still. So I have started watching a few movies here and there... need to get some titles the next time I go JB.
Plus finally ever since last friday, I have been so very tired. On that day, I totally crashed around 9am and woke up around 12pm. Then I just feel tired everyday. Its not like I am not getting enough sleep. Havent been gaming or anything meant I sleep near 10pm. Though I had to go for full-day courses on Mon, Tue, Wed and Fri, I was tired daily. Just feel like sleeping and not waking up forever type. Vesak day and the weekends was spent on sleeping and going out then more sleeping. Even today, I slept at 1am, woke up around 830am, then went to my sis's room to sleep until 11plus, ate lunch, feel tired, rested around 3pm then I bathed and went for jap class. Around 10pm I am yawning and wishing for my bed. Man... its like what Tab said, we just didnt realize how tired we are. And it catches up with ya. My mom was saying the body trying to recover the sleep but it takes an exponentially more hrs to recover every lost hour of sleep. Guess its a cumulative effect. Imagine 10 intense weeks without any break save for public holiday or mc. Imagine 10 long weeks, most days are double shifts ie 7am-1pm then 1.30pm-5.30pm plus reach home around 6.30-7pm.
Yar no wonder my body is like a deflated balloon, just not much energy and becoming a flabby balloon.
Tom I WILL start on a workout, be it at home or go to the gym and hope to keep it going. Health is Wealth. I do not want my body to go to such a state of neglect ie become humongous like an elephant before I start taking actions. It is seriously easy to lapse into that cycle of neglect that the pounds get put on easily cos work just takes up so much time that the only activity one can do easily is just to eat and eat and eat. It is easy to fall into that vicious cycle. So far I still do not snack but I need to change my main meals, the number and the content and watch the calories. Want to feel strong and energetic again... as well as look good and feel good about my body.
K tommorrow workout here I come.
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