Finally I am fulfiling a long time dream of mine. I have been telling friends that if I ever was to be unemployed, then I would go to Pacific coffee and enjoy a hot cup of coffee while the rest of the office crowd rushes by.... LOL that would be fun.
Well not that I am doing that anyway. But there is another dream of mine, that is if I ever need to rest, sleep, I would go to a Fruit bar nearby and sleep in the soft sofas that they have. Well its at Fuzion smoothies bar, and guess what, I am doing that right now. My work place is just nearby but I can just Nuah here. The fruit smoothies is nice. A nice place to nuah the hours away. Well I really need to Chill out. Anyway. It has been an other tough week. Well the only consolation is that I can expect my pay check soon.
Hope to live through another week. Update u all if I survive through.
Saturday, February 28, 2004
Sunday, February 22, 2004
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
| Level | Score |
|---|---|
| Purgatory (Repenting Believers) | Very Low |
| Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) | Moderate |
| Level 2 (Lustful) | Low |
| Level 3 (Gluttonous) | High |
| Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) | Low |
| Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) | Very High |
| Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) | Extreme |
| Level 7 (Violent) | High |
| Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) | Moderate |
| Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) | Moderate |
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
You are a PHOENIX in your soul and your
wings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,
they burn with light and power and rebirth.
Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are an
amazingly strong person. You survive, even
flourish in adversity and hardship. A firm
believer in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't kill
you only makes you stronger,' you rarely fear
failure. You know that any mistake you make
will teach you more about yourself and allow
you to 'rise from the ashes' as a still greater
being. Because of this, you rarely make the
same mistake twice, and are not among the most
forgiving people. You're extremely powerful and
wise, and are capable of fierce pride, passion,
and anger. Perhaps you're this way because you
were forced to survive a rough childhood. Or
maybe you just have a strong grasp on reality
and know that life is tough and the world is
cruel, and it takes strength and independence
to survive it. And independence is your
strongest point - you may care for others, and
even depend on them...but when it comes right
down to it, the only one you need is yourself.
Thus you trust your own intuition, and rely on
a mind almost as brilliant as the fire of your
wings to guide you.You are eternal and because
you have a strong sense of who and what you
are, no one can control your heart or mind, or
even really influence your thinking. A symbol
of rebirth and renewal, you tend to be a very
spiritual person with a serious mind - never
acting immature and harboring a superior
disgust of those who do. Likewise, humanity's
stupidity and tendency to want others to solve
their problems for them frustrates you
endlessly. Though you can be stubborn,
outspoken, and haughty, I admire you greatly.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla
Thursday, February 12, 2004
Well Jap lessons have been fun. U see, we have been going up to our Jap teacher, and asking him for the Jap equivalent of some words that we commonly use. It is nice to see Sensei's amused or surprised expression when we asked him some of these words too. Then with the help of dictionary, some funny terms like dog and monkey. And also some phrases we all learn, like its hard....
So after a few weeks, we got words like 'shi ni masu' for die, 'su to re su' for stress, 'ta ma tte i masu' for being squeezed and everything is tumbling down, 'saru' for monkey and 'i nu' for dog.
Lemme practice:
" Everyday I begin work as a Saru, and work is making me sutoresu. On top of that, still being rushed to do my project and still help do data entry and other crap, t feels like tamatteimasu. Really shinimasu every single day this week...! Then at the end of the day, around 7 plus, I drag myself out of office like an inu. Thank god, the week is coming to an end...tomorrow. Its really HARD and INSANE work.... Taihendesuyo.
Signed Internal Bleeding and really puking blood.....
So after a few weeks, we got words like 'shi ni masu' for die, 'su to re su' for stress, 'ta ma tte i masu' for being squeezed and everything is tumbling down, 'saru' for monkey and 'i nu' for dog.
Lemme practice:
" Everyday I begin work as a Saru, and work is making me sutoresu. On top of that, still being rushed to do my project and still help do data entry and other crap, t feels like tamatteimasu. Really shinimasu every single day this week...! Then at the end of the day, around 7 plus, I drag myself out of office like an inu. Thank god, the week is coming to an end...tomorrow. Its really HARD and INSANE work.... Taihendesuyo.
Signed Internal Bleeding and really puking blood.....
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Well just peered at Kheldar's thoughts, which are deep and intense about the dilemma that many of us face. Hmm hey Kheldar, didnt know u were so deep. Was it the coffee? :P
"What sort of life should one choose to lead?"
"Should one 'suffer' now working n slogging away the best years of one's life so that one can 'enjoy' thy fruits of one's labour in middle age or retirement?"
Currently I have worked for almost 6 mths, all under the umbrella of justifications that I have mentioned many a times already; experience, exposure, economic benefits and education bond, I wonder what other Es have I forgotten to include? But in return for my 'hard work', all that I have gotten so far are; lack of sleep, lack of energy, lack of time and lack of money. Why? Cos I am still lowly-paid... Mine is still not a 'real' job. It is very sad, that on weekdays, beyond say 9pm, I start to stone and exist in a zoombie-like manner. This is really a pity cos on occassions where I went out with friends, I really cannot function anymore, but just look and feel tired. My daily reserve of energy is really used up. Thankfully friends understand. Though my social life really suffers.
Then Reality still BITES. I am still trying to overcome and trying to reconcile Reality and Dreams. Why do I feel that I am slowly losing my dreams as well. Just too tired and caught up by the Realities of life, I guess, to even look beyond the tunnel-vision that I am currently seeing the world in... But I still try to stop in my steps, and enjoy the flowers by the roadside, a short breather, before I brave the storm ahead. In fact in my life, I have seldom looked at the sky unless I have 8am tutorials. But now that I work, I always peer at the blue cloudy sky, with the just-rising sun. I now appreciate the day has just begun, the fact that I am witnessing the begining of the day. Well it feels good to feel the breeze against one's face. The air is also fresher and sweeter.
Well that is the good part. There is also the bad part: before u could even enjoy the day that has just begun, or appreciate the beautiful sunrise, U have to hurry and run to catch the 7.40am bus. Then u hurry ur footsteps, matching the rest of the hurried ones, and glance quickly at the signboard that displays the estimated time u have left to race to the MRT platform and clammer onboard the train. Depending on the time, say 7.50am, there is still some though uncomfortable bit of space to stand, but around 8am, its "sardine packing time!" Duh, whatever good mood that one felt when u saw the sunrise and sky, is tarnished by either 1)someone stepped on your vulnerable feet, claded only in naked sandals,
2) the combination of sweat (very little) and all sorts of perfume, only serve to numb one's sense of smell. Whatever sweet smell of the fresh air u inhaled, and whatever good that did to your lungs, was lost when u inhaled one breath of this toxic mixture.... Well that gets worst on the return journey, where BO comes into play.....
3) there u are trying to sleep while standing up, and some assh*les just keep pushing in.
4) ever played this game, where u try to squeeze into the train but it is too crowded so u r inches from the door, when it closes, u do this 'Titanic' hand thingy on the closed door.... WHO ever said that there is no games to play besides those in handphones nowadays.
Well what can I say. Then after this hazardous journey, one reaches the office. U can only get one last glance and utter a soft sign (or swear word) before u step into the artifical environment of the OFFICE. The next look at the sky is lunch provided that its not too sunny, but it also feels good, when u come out of some Artic in the equator and warm ur cold fingers under the sun's heat. (not too long though). And as the hours ticked away, and the day is ending, if u r lucky enough not to OT, then u might just catch the setting sun, on ur way home thru bio-warfare n exhaust modes of transport. Then u wonder to urself if all this sh*t n cr*p are all even worth ur time. I must be Persius, cos Medusa stares at me, and I start stoning... "Man, I am sooooo tired, only thing I want to do is bathe, eat and sleep..." "!!!!, what already 12.30am? hey what did I do just now, after bathing..... err I cant remember....but I still want to do this n this n that. Sh*t F*ck, well got to do that tom then.... Better sleep now or never....ZzzzZ" But when tomorrow comes along, the same thing happens. Its just like a tape-recorder....
In the end, I came to one conclusion, I dun like to work. Esp if hrs long, if work dull, if pay low. Man I wanna retire! I want to enjoy the best times of my life. Nian2 Qing1 Shi4 Ben3 Qian2 (youth is money) If one overwork and use up this 'money' who is there to give it back to u, when the only thing then u have is just money? I am still working for my dreams, but I want to have more energy to pursue my other interests. I also dun want to burn myself out like a candle, though life is also burning away every second of the day. There is no work, that is more important than your health.
---------Internal Bleeding---------------
"What sort of life should one choose to lead?"
"Should one 'suffer' now working n slogging away the best years of one's life so that one can 'enjoy' thy fruits of one's labour in middle age or retirement?"
Currently I have worked for almost 6 mths, all under the umbrella of justifications that I have mentioned many a times already; experience, exposure, economic benefits and education bond, I wonder what other Es have I forgotten to include? But in return for my 'hard work', all that I have gotten so far are; lack of sleep, lack of energy, lack of time and lack of money. Why? Cos I am still lowly-paid... Mine is still not a 'real' job. It is very sad, that on weekdays, beyond say 9pm, I start to stone and exist in a zoombie-like manner. This is really a pity cos on occassions where I went out with friends, I really cannot function anymore, but just look and feel tired. My daily reserve of energy is really used up. Thankfully friends understand. Though my social life really suffers.
Then Reality still BITES. I am still trying to overcome and trying to reconcile Reality and Dreams. Why do I feel that I am slowly losing my dreams as well. Just too tired and caught up by the Realities of life, I guess, to even look beyond the tunnel-vision that I am currently seeing the world in... But I still try to stop in my steps, and enjoy the flowers by the roadside, a short breather, before I brave the storm ahead. In fact in my life, I have seldom looked at the sky unless I have 8am tutorials. But now that I work, I always peer at the blue cloudy sky, with the just-rising sun. I now appreciate the day has just begun, the fact that I am witnessing the begining of the day. Well it feels good to feel the breeze against one's face. The air is also fresher and sweeter.
Well that is the good part. There is also the bad part: before u could even enjoy the day that has just begun, or appreciate the beautiful sunrise, U have to hurry and run to catch the 7.40am bus. Then u hurry ur footsteps, matching the rest of the hurried ones, and glance quickly at the signboard that displays the estimated time u have left to race to the MRT platform and clammer onboard the train. Depending on the time, say 7.50am, there is still some though uncomfortable bit of space to stand, but around 8am, its "sardine packing time!" Duh, whatever good mood that one felt when u saw the sunrise and sky, is tarnished by either 1)someone stepped on your vulnerable feet, claded only in naked sandals,
2) the combination of sweat (very little) and all sorts of perfume, only serve to numb one's sense of smell. Whatever sweet smell of the fresh air u inhaled, and whatever good that did to your lungs, was lost when u inhaled one breath of this toxic mixture.... Well that gets worst on the return journey, where BO comes into play.....
3) there u are trying to sleep while standing up, and some assh*les just keep pushing in.
4) ever played this game, where u try to squeeze into the train but it is too crowded so u r inches from the door, when it closes, u do this 'Titanic' hand thingy on the closed door.... WHO ever said that there is no games to play besides those in handphones nowadays.
Well what can I say. Then after this hazardous journey, one reaches the office. U can only get one last glance and utter a soft sign (or swear word) before u step into the artifical environment of the OFFICE. The next look at the sky is lunch provided that its not too sunny, but it also feels good, when u come out of some Artic in the equator and warm ur cold fingers under the sun's heat. (not too long though). And as the hours ticked away, and the day is ending, if u r lucky enough not to OT, then u might just catch the setting sun, on ur way home thru bio-warfare n exhaust modes of transport. Then u wonder to urself if all this sh*t n cr*p are all even worth ur time. I must be Persius, cos Medusa stares at me, and I start stoning... "Man, I am sooooo tired, only thing I want to do is bathe, eat and sleep..." "!!!!, what already 12.30am? hey what did I do just now, after bathing..... err I cant remember....but I still want to do this n this n that. Sh*t F*ck, well got to do that tom then.... Better sleep now or never....ZzzzZ" But when tomorrow comes along, the same thing happens. Its just like a tape-recorder....
In the end, I came to one conclusion, I dun like to work. Esp if hrs long, if work dull, if pay low. Man I wanna retire! I want to enjoy the best times of my life. Nian2 Qing1 Shi4 Ben3 Qian2 (youth is money) If one overwork and use up this 'money' who is there to give it back to u, when the only thing then u have is just money? I am still working for my dreams, but I want to have more energy to pursue my other interests. I also dun want to burn myself out like a candle, though life is also burning away every second of the day. There is no work, that is more important than your health.
---------Internal Bleeding---------------
Monday, February 02, 2004
Its been a while since I've last blogged. Just had a memorable birthday with friends. Esp the jazz birthday song at Jazz@new south bridge. Thanks friends, for putting me in the 'spot light'. Thanks also for the present, in fact I will be using them really soon....
The long weekend was used for resting. In fact, I just concus on bed until the afternoon. It feels good to just not do anything for a while. Doing some stuff like playing a few songs on guitar, playing PSII and lazing around. But it seems fatigue and some aches have caught up with me.... Keep on feeling pretty tired, sleepy and a bit of aches. Well just started on the preliminary of my internship project, hope work will be less hectic and more interesting. Well just have another 95 working days to go. Dunno if this will 'convert' into a perm, but even if not, I hope the project can add value to me. Well another 19 weeks to go.
The long weekend was used for resting. In fact, I just concus on bed until the afternoon. It feels good to just not do anything for a while. Doing some stuff like playing a few songs on guitar, playing PSII and lazing around. But it seems fatigue and some aches have caught up with me.... Keep on feeling pretty tired, sleepy and a bit of aches. Well just started on the preliminary of my internship project, hope work will be less hectic and more interesting. Well just have another 95 working days to go. Dunno if this will 'convert' into a perm, but even if not, I hope the project can add value to me. Well another 19 weeks to go.
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