So far its the 8th day into the hols and in the week, I have gone out for a couple of dinners with friends, a lunch and the temple to pray, tidied up part of the room - put neatly the cooking stuff I bought and not using in a box to put neatly at a corner and also tidied up the anime, DVDs bought that are scattered around into those mass cd holders. Stacked neatly. The room floor is not so cluttered. More spacey cos the floors are cleared. Today I plan to tidy up my clothes neatly into the drawers where they belong. Also just started going to the gym yesterday. Today muscles are sore despite slapping on the muscle cream last night. Plan to go gym before heading out tonight in the evening.
I was shocked to discover that to lose 1kg, you need a deficit of 7700 calories. No wonder though I have been monitoring my diet this past 2 mths but the deficit is not large enough to warrant even 1kg of weight loss. So have to exercise to force up the calorie deficit. Even with this, to lose the weight would require at least half a year to a year. So this will be my new year resolution to work on in 2012.
I have come to realize during the tidying up of the discs, that I really have quite a few PS2 games that I would never really go about playing unless I do it on a regular basis. Even my curren game of FFXII, I won't game until late at nights, I can go a few days without touching. It just shows, I am not that into gaming cos I see the trade-off. If I game, I won't have time to go to the gym, monitor my investment, read, head out, or just some free time to do as I please. I still drool when I see the new games on PS3 and marvel at the animation but as a gamer who plays for keeps, I want my gains to be real and not virtual nowadays. In my investments and management of my finances, I play to keep. In my work and gym-efforts I aim to make real thing to keep. I pursue new experiences and skills to keep and use in real life. This is the difference. These games would stay dusty for a long while ahead.
But I do still feel the dust of daily life getting to me. I feel better now a week into the break, didn't sleep crazy hours at nights, didn't wake really late in the mornings. Enjoying the lax to lie around in bed and think, surf the net etc. There are questions about where exactly am I heading to in my life. What do I want to do with the rest of it. Unfortunately there is no guidebook with a walkthrough. On certain fronts, I am doing well but in certain aspects, dismally. While I wish to live without regrets in the present, I dont wish to look back and regret not doing certain things. Yet ironically it's all part of life *sigh*
Friday, December 30, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Finally the break is here
Its been really tough. Getting through the last 5 weeks of the 17 weeks term. Partly is exams were over so students no mood and incentive to study but their system is such that everything is back to normal and the show must go on. So finally it's over for now.
Yesterday students left about 11.35am but we had to stay for the lunch party. But after that, werent allowed to leave earlier until 4pm. All the waiting around after a heavy lunch from 2.30pm meant I was so mentally tired. Went home, fell asleep shortly until 9pm.
Can't travel, hols don't match up with friend's plus mom not well to go Genting with me. So I guess I would be digging out my PS2 to play FFXII first. Maybe work my way to a PS3 eventually. Agenda includes buying a laptop, getting a haircut and dye, tidying up my room and table, going to the gym more frequently. Waking up later in the mornings.
Yesterday students left about 11.35am but we had to stay for the lunch party. But after that, werent allowed to leave earlier until 4pm. All the waiting around after a heavy lunch from 2.30pm meant I was so mentally tired. Went home, fell asleep shortly until 9pm.
Can't travel, hols don't match up with friend's plus mom not well to go Genting with me. So I guess I would be digging out my PS2 to play FFXII first. Maybe work my way to a PS3 eventually. Agenda includes buying a laptop, getting a haircut and dye, tidying up my room and table, going to the gym more frequently. Waking up later in the mornings.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
逃学威龙 / Apple cider / Stopping guitar for now / new G-shock watch
Running out:
I did something that I haven't dine in a long time. I literally ran out from my workplace 1.5hrs earlier than my usual end time. I did this a few times in the past when the other ex-local collegue was around. I just hope in her car and we go for a late long lunch. I didn't go back after. But since she's left, I have been very 乖, I go out dabao lunch, walk straight back, later eat at the lunch time and usually finish in 25mins. Rest just stone or do work. Then recently for a few days, I stayed back OT to edit video, and for 2 days, I went at least 45mns earlier than my usual to film for student's project... So I don't feel guilty.
But what was funny was since I don't have a car, I can't hope on. Then there are parents and students around until 3pm so though I was free from 1.35pm onwards, I used some time to tidy my work and stuff. Before 3, I was rather restless. I went to the backgate and lo and behold, it wasn't padlocked. I got my bag, kept in the outside locker. Then when the coast is clear, I took my bag, walked to the back gate, opened and closed the back gate and ran out until I was some distance away. Saw students near the bus stop so I detour via the back of the shops and walked instead to the interchange, to avoid taking bus. I felt a sense of excitement (of
course didn't want to be caught) but this long term is driving me to do these things.
Met up with Quetzal at Liang court. I arrived early and walked around, later stoned. We ate dinner and later stoned at a dessert shop to pass time until her friend's performance at the Beer market. I was contemplating a mocktail like pussyfoot but later ordered just a bottle of cider 4.5%. The band was good but my right ear was kinda numb cos we sat right smack up to the stage with all the amps and speakers. I didnt want to stay out late, so after the first set, I went back via cab. Interestingly, the cab ride was $12, slightly less than my cider and I was home b4 midnight. That apple cider is my first alcohol in weeks.
Woke up freaking early like 7am, and couldn't go back to sleep so got up. I had decided to call my music sch to quit. Last lesson was kinda the last straw. I thought abt Quet's words, plus a new set of 4 lessons is starting today. Instead of paying $120 and have to sit through 4 more such lessons, the alternative is to forfeit my deposit of $50 which I gladly. So i called thru and ask abt whether the new set has started. Apparently, it's today. So I just say I want to quit. Cos no 1 mth notice, so forfeit that $50 deposit. Which to me is ok, cos I havent seen that $50 since I first joined up. Instead of throwing a fresh $120 to get back $50. So just like that, I didn't have to leave home to travel all the way down. I want to enjoy some free Sats before I start anything. I find I need to have some personal time just doing nothing for a few days given how hard I had to work - job, assignment, plus guitar lesson and gym. Kinda miss the days of pure freedom. Just another 4 more workdays.
So just liddat, I was free to go to the bank, with my sis. We went to Clementi Mall and she was looking for a present. I walked around with her. We ended up in a watch shop where I decided to look around for a new watch for myself. I still wanted a dual watch face. Looked at the G-shock and Baby G. The former being a bit big for my wrist, the latter being smaller than my current watch. In the end, I bought a new G-shock (guy) watch. My first branded watch of more than $150. If it's durable, I can expect to use it for years to come.
In the end, my sis bought a surgical steel pendant with chain. There were some really nice butterfly designs that ranges from $85-$108 I collusive of chain. She bought a transformable piece plus engraving. Pricy. About 4.45pm, I headed home while she headed off. Reached home and stoned.
Tomorrow die die must go gym, been over-eating severely for consecutive days :(
I did something that I haven't dine in a long time. I literally ran out from my workplace 1.5hrs earlier than my usual end time. I did this a few times in the past when the other ex-local collegue was around. I just hope in her car and we go for a late long lunch. I didn't go back after. But since she's left, I have been very 乖, I go out dabao lunch, walk straight back, later eat at the lunch time and usually finish in 25mins. Rest just stone or do work. Then recently for a few days, I stayed back OT to edit video, and for 2 days, I went at least 45mns earlier than my usual to film for student's project... So I don't feel guilty.
But what was funny was since I don't have a car, I can't hope on. Then there are parents and students around until 3pm so though I was free from 1.35pm onwards, I used some time to tidy my work and stuff. Before 3, I was rather restless. I went to the backgate and lo and behold, it wasn't padlocked. I got my bag, kept in the outside locker. Then when the coast is clear, I took my bag, walked to the back gate, opened and closed the back gate and ran out until I was some distance away. Saw students near the bus stop so I detour via the back of the shops and walked instead to the interchange, to avoid taking bus. I felt a sense of excitement (of
course didn't want to be caught) but this long term is driving me to do these things.
Met up with Quetzal at Liang court. I arrived early and walked around, later stoned. We ate dinner and later stoned at a dessert shop to pass time until her friend's performance at the Beer market. I was contemplating a mocktail like pussyfoot but later ordered just a bottle of cider 4.5%. The band was good but my right ear was kinda numb cos we sat right smack up to the stage with all the amps and speakers. I didnt want to stay out late, so after the first set, I went back via cab. Interestingly, the cab ride was $12, slightly less than my cider and I was home b4 midnight. That apple cider is my first alcohol in weeks.
Woke up freaking early like 7am, and couldn't go back to sleep so got up. I had decided to call my music sch to quit. Last lesson was kinda the last straw. I thought abt Quet's words, plus a new set of 4 lessons is starting today. Instead of paying $120 and have to sit through 4 more such lessons, the alternative is to forfeit my deposit of $50 which I gladly. So i called thru and ask abt whether the new set has started. Apparently, it's today. So I just say I want to quit. Cos no 1 mth notice, so forfeit that $50 deposit. Which to me is ok, cos I havent seen that $50 since I first joined up. Instead of throwing a fresh $120 to get back $50. So just like that, I didn't have to leave home to travel all the way down. I want to enjoy some free Sats before I start anything. I find I need to have some personal time just doing nothing for a few days given how hard I had to work - job, assignment, plus guitar lesson and gym. Kinda miss the days of pure freedom. Just another 4 more workdays.
So just liddat, I was free to go to the bank, with my sis. We went to Clementi Mall and she was looking for a present. I walked around with her. We ended up in a watch shop where I decided to look around for a new watch for myself. I still wanted a dual watch face. Looked at the G-shock and Baby G. The former being a bit big for my wrist, the latter being smaller than my current watch. In the end, I bought a new G-shock (guy) watch. My first branded watch of more than $150. If it's durable, I can expect to use it for years to come.
In the end, my sis bought a surgical steel pendant with chain. There were some really nice butterfly designs that ranges from $85-$108 I collusive of chain. She bought a transformable piece plus engraving. Pricy. About 4.45pm, I headed home while she headed off. Reached home and stoned.
Tomorrow die die must go gym, been over-eating severely for consecutive days :(
Sunday, December 04, 2011
Weekends do zoom by ultra fast
Work is looming in the horizon but there's a slight silver lining. Though my periods are he same, they are more spread out unlike the knee I had consecutive 3 periods. Now will be 2 break followed by another 2 after lunch. Good and bad. Totally looking forward to the hols. Hanging in there.
Tom I aim to start going to thus gym again , stopped for an entire month. Weight is about the same, though stomach is flatter from the porridge diet. But now my stomach is back to normal, I find, I am often bursting the calorie intake... Soon flatter will turn rounder unless I do something. I need to make sure I eat decent (not fattening) meals, reduce to nil snacking.
Headed out on Fri evening and met Quetzal and XX, for KFC dinner. Really long since myast KFC, though last monday I had Astons double up chicken. I arrived about 20mins earlier and headed to the cold storage to buy chocs, candy, jelly and candy cane. Cos some students reqquested a Chistmas party, which I don't mind (I treat this like a children day) cos they don't habvE such. So with a budget of $1 per person, plus leftover chocs are mine, I spent $100 of the voucher. Left $100 more. At least I have bought physical stuff I would use like the two French press, water bottle and a luggage tag. Haven't used yet.
After dinner, we went to the Maneki Neko section cos Quet needed to get a present for gift exchange. We looked on and saw these 4 styles of the neko figurine in self-righting doll mode. It meant that u can play with it and it will right itself. It cost $8 but with 10% discount and an additional 10% for Taka cards. I bought 2 with the intention to put at my table. Which is purely work. Don't mind playing with them when I am bored or too tired to work. After that we walked around a bit more and hung until closing. Quet washs nice to send me home cos of the bags of candy I bought.
Will repackage them later in the week into little packs, easier to distribute. Also need family to help out. 2 weeks more, so no hurry now.
Sat I went fr guitar, ate the wanton mee and 2 desserts - mango sago n the logan ice, little wonder I exceeded the calorie. I will try to keep up with this porridge thingy. Went home. A d slept mainly. Sun is stay-home. Though I still woke up earlier than what I meant. 8am. Did practice guitar. Now stoning. Should sleep early if I can.
Tom I aim to start going to thus gym again , stopped for an entire month. Weight is about the same, though stomach is flatter from the porridge diet. But now my stomach is back to normal, I find, I am often bursting the calorie intake... Soon flatter will turn rounder unless I do something. I need to make sure I eat decent (not fattening) meals, reduce to nil snacking.
Headed out on Fri evening and met Quetzal and XX, for KFC dinner. Really long since myast KFC, though last monday I had Astons double up chicken. I arrived about 20mins earlier and headed to the cold storage to buy chocs, candy, jelly and candy cane. Cos some students reqquested a Chistmas party, which I don't mind (I treat this like a children day) cos they don't habvE such. So with a budget of $1 per person, plus leftover chocs are mine, I spent $100 of the voucher. Left $100 more. At least I have bought physical stuff I would use like the two French press, water bottle and a luggage tag. Haven't used yet.
After dinner, we went to the Maneki Neko section cos Quet needed to get a present for gift exchange. We looked on and saw these 4 styles of the neko figurine in self-righting doll mode. It meant that u can play with it and it will right itself. It cost $8 but with 10% discount and an additional 10% for Taka cards. I bought 2 with the intention to put at my table. Which is purely work. Don't mind playing with them when I am bored or too tired to work. After that we walked around a bit more and hung until closing. Quet washs nice to send me home cos of the bags of candy I bought.
Will repackage them later in the week into little packs, easier to distribute. Also need family to help out. 2 weeks more, so no hurry now.
Sat I went fr guitar, ate the wanton mee and 2 desserts - mango sago n the logan ice, little wonder I exceeded the calorie. I will try to keep up with this porridge thingy. Went home. A d slept mainly. Sun is stay-home. Though I still woke up earlier than what I meant. 8am. Did practice guitar. Now stoning. Should sleep early if I can.
Thursday, December 01, 2011
Feeling the lack of stamina - going on almost flat
The stupidity of drinking most from a tower of Green Spirinula beer has left me with, first, an incident where my friends would laugh and make fun of me at my expense, two, the prolonged lack of urge to drink beer or even any other alcohol... And lastly, something for me to add to my uncompleted list of 100 things to do, then cross it out cos I've done the one about getting drunk, throwing up and suffered a bad hangover. I am not going to touch much alcohol for the coming Christmas party at Tab's place as usual. Will happily be the bartender mainly.
Things are kinda downhill for me cos I feel the fatique has caught up with me. I feel tired even on my light days of work. I just kinda stoned and blur blur pass through the free periods sometimes when I just don't want to do anymore work. A week feels like an eternity. Hanging in there by a thread. Am going to start going to the gym cos I've stopped for about a month due to the bout of sickness followed by hangover n diarrhea. Now since my assignment ended, my weekday evenings are mine. Then since I've stopped exercising as I was unwell, suddenly like there's nothing to do. But I end up sleeping cos on some days, I was so mentally tired, I had to sleep early to recover. Some days I stay at home, read comics online.
I feel a sense of wanderlust coming on. Feel like getting out of the country for a short trip. But as my hols don't match with my friend's schedule. It's kinda hard to make plans. Out of exasperation, I asked my mom how she goes Genting? That would have to check for some offers. I should go check out the nearby travel agency soon. Just a short trip will do.
Worse are club days. Sometimes I think I am the only one feeling it, then I chat with the phillipino colleague and she feels the same too. K so I am normal. It's the others who are not. Am reaching a limit cos it's really going thru the motions on some days. Just too bloody long a term.
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