Sunday, November 24, 2013

Another week down

This year has really been tough & that's an understatement. This Week has been really really long. 6 days workweek due to another event. It's been a hectic slew of events & a mad rush to finish teaching b4 the exams, then frantic all checking books then endurance marking then more books checking. On top of these is that event that Kanjeong spiders ask 'Me damn last min for activities.

This time, A couple felt my wrath cos ask me at a time where I'm tying very hard to clear my work and so vague and last min & expect miracles? There's no pre-made activities possible. Last time I had time to clear and think, but this year I am struggling already so fed my wrath though some idea struck me, and I made up something. Though stupid questions asked are being shot down by me.

For my own lessons, lagi best, already so few inspiration this year, helped settle FW's partial lesson meant I had little ideas for my Own. I had on idea for a sort-of after-eXam first lesson which isn't much of the formal style. Decide just to go along with it. Dun car that there would be visitors and it might not be What they want to see. But its not for them, just heck and did it. Then after hear some positive comments from some but I take with a pinch of salt cos culturally they can't say bad things to a foreigner... Scully say thing behind the back.

Happy that it's over. Met up with Krynnder & ZX plus the gang for dinner @ Shin Kushin. T was there and was tired & hungry. So I ate @Soupspoon, a Soup and salad. Dinner was good, too. Chatted, updated and joked. Headed to Ang Siang Hill area for dessert. The chook cake Was excellent but the service was patchy. Thanks to Quet who kindly sent Mb back. Hera ends a working Sat. Time to enjoy my weeknds. It's well-deserved & harI-earned.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

WTFHis wrong with tthis year? Where's my windfall??

I am being floored by poor planning. Need to rant. Damn pent-up cos didnt go KM this week yet. Summary is on top of my already damn hectic schedule on a daily basis. I tio extra ad-hoc duties cos of another event. Plus had extra students pushed onto me. And hence it disrupted the plans to finish syllabus just in time for the exams... and that stupid priject-based lesson is poorly planned and coordinated.

I had to rush around like crazy in that sole lesson to film 3 groups which obviously dun end up being ready. So I had to co tinue with that incomplete groups over my free break time. Trouble is my timetable is so packed that on top of this, meant I either had to forgo going out to buy lunch or had to anticipate and dabao morning food as my lunch. I am already damn du-lan. I had to do that for 3 classes hence 3 days liao. Even a siant has limits.

After all these rushed filming and I loaded them all onto the network. Damn tired but still got lessons to go. Editing was supposed to be out of my hands. I couldn't even relax and pick up the guitar to strum my blues away and achieve inner peace before it got shattered. Basically damn screwed up... windows and apple dun communicate, so the same file once loaded on windows cant be transferred to apple. I got students coming frantically to find me and try to get the originals which I dun have cos all the video cams and sd cards are with that colleague whom I dun know where... bloody hell. Climbed up and down several times looking. WtH! Damn fucked-up!!! Wasted the entire hour plus and I didnt get any lax.

Damn du-lan that I brought my guitar home and did some playing ti calm myself. Bathed, ate dinner, sis bought dessert. My new military bags arrived that helped to lift my mood somewhat. Now just very tured but nerves frayed from all these intense and hectic crap. So drained and its just Tue. Tomorrow is another hectic day so hectic that I shudder at the thought cos there's two of that lessons with that FW. Bloodycrap. I think once the exams are over,  if I am not up to it, wouldn't fight it anymore, just surrender...

Where's my financial windfall? The horoscope is right sbout the hectic crap at work and the ill-effects on my health and well-being. Then where's my financial windfall? that's the big question? Think my overtly-irritated mind needs some alcohol to shut down.


Friday, November 08, 2013

Contemplation & Reflection

It's been a while since the last entry. Too caugt up in the grind of daily life...

Had a chat with the P and I said I was still contemplating whether to continue... Give an answer before this term ends.  My Guan Yin temple qian is said is not the time... plus I did look at Job-street and its either I dont have the qualifications n experience or too qualified and the pay sucked. Then that investment where the firm De listed but jept delaying returning the capital meant I dun haveaccess to my full funds. All these might be the "signs" to let me know it isn't the right time, which as things play out, seemed more obvious. But when is the right time and would I really be able to land something better as the qian said??? I am so unsure of the next step to take cos am so bogged down by the fatique of daily work. In the recent meet-up with Candle, I just prayed for things to be smooth and inner peace.

KM I am going for the Anti car jacking course cos it's on a Sat. Sun I have my drums. There's another one on long weapons which I would want to attend if it's on Sat too. That is partucularly important for me. Anyway this week I only went once, a double. I have only just recovered from the shoulder n back aches. First time I put on my fist wraps. Last Sun, I was watching you-tube and tying plus drinking at the same time. Did more than 10 tries before finally getting most of it down. Since the beginner class was striking, can put in. First hand ok. Other hand er..  tio stuck cos it's in the other direction and I practiced one side only.  Luckily the other female student who has muay thai background helped me tie it. It's like a wrist guard of sort. Since I've bought it, I'll try to use it. The Adv class was a bit complicated cos 4 different levels of blocking agaibst kicks. Learnt 3 before but some just once, plus longtime didnt do and one is new. After the long explanation,  kenna lost a biy pkus hard to focus from the exertion of the earlier class. But still can do after the practice. Just it hasnt been saved firmly in my brains. Haven't write down pointers in my KM notebook yet. Super backache and sore shoulders so rest and recover plus medicated plasters.

I was floored by the end of Wed. Coughing badly but thankfully I was not involved in today's event. Plus got one off-day so I decided to take half. Used the time to clear up some stufd n settle one lesson.  It's so long since I could sit down and do and make a resource. I thought of going out but in the end I fell asleel cos such a nice weather n peaceful in the house.  Woke up and went to the supermarket with Mom to help her with the heavy groceries n pushing the trolley. Then I went to JE to partly do banking, chevk oht movie timing n the library. The movie was kinda late so decided to go to library. Borrowed more audio books n took a bus to Clementi to continue banking.  Then just headed home, knowing I have dinner st home so I shouldn't be eating outside. Thid leisure unhurried way was somethibg I missed sorely. It gave me a bit of inner peace cos thu is the simple life,  I had time to think and remind myself to be thankful for the things I have, not  to take for granted.

Dinner, practice guitar and then by 11pm everyone is asleeo except me. I am still awake at 12.30am sio I better rest cos tom is another very hectux day...