Now that the holidays are upon me, I kinda feel lost. Huh? Its only the 3rd day of your break and you are lost? Well its that feeling of emptiness that you feel when exams are over. Before the break, you have everything planned out. I am gonna do this, that, that... and then when the holidays come, suddenly you lose the drive to do all those things.Hmm so far, I have only slept and slept and slept. Specifically sleep at the unholy hours of the morning say 3.30am and wake up in the middle of the day like 1pm. Basically I dont want to wake up as early as I had to while working. So going back to my 'night-owling' ways.

I think I should get started on my long-overdued Gundam Seed and Naruto that Krynnder has kindly lent me but which I am stuck around episode 50. Then there is Fruit Basket and some movies on hand. Actually quite a few like Kingdom of Heaven, Kill Bill and many more. Just cant settle down to watch them. Not to mention I have to fight for the TV with my sisters and Dad who has been watching alot of VCD and DVD documentaries about ancient history.Well for now just ripping my Cds into Grey so that I can always listen to my entire CD collection anytime, anywhere. I carry Grey along everywhere. So far I already used up 2.7G. Then rented an entire set of comics to read. Titled: Mo Li Xiao Ma (chinese) all 33 books. Intend to play some Gunbound and RoseOnline. But then again have to fight for computer usage with sisters. Sign. Sometimes the fighting for usage is what puts me off completely from doing something. I'll rather do something else instead. Eg Sleep rather than wait and wait and wait. At least no one is fighting for the bed. :)

Today finally watched the Star Wars III with my sister at Orchard Cinelesiure. We didnt want to squeeze with Star War fanatics so decided to wait until now. Not to mention that I was working and busy and now she is doing holiday work. Both of us felt that though it was the best instalment so far, though still boring and lame. Esp the fighting part. Always felt that the fighting is old-fashion. Cos nowadays there are Matrix style, X-man superpowers type so using the lightsaber as a shield cum swash-buckling and your naked palm for the Force seem kinda childish. I know, I know... Star Wars is an old franchise. Come on, I also watched all the star wars series when I was very young on tv. But its just kinda funny looking at something that doesnt seem to fit into the generation. I guess a few years down the road, we will look at the remake of the Matrix and laugh at it for its corny actions then.

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I've watched many cartoons when I was young and loved a few like Voltron, G-Force. But now when I see them being replayed on television, sadly I find it lame also. Of course while watching, I suddenly seem to remember my childhood. I remember things that up til that point, I had forgotten. Remember how things seem much simplier and innocent then. Sometimes we chase things from our childhood like Robotech for me, is not that we are really into the series. It may be partially true, but mainly we are chasing the lost time. Reminicising about lost memories and feelings. No matter how much we want to treasure all memories, we forget unconsciously. Sure certain events stay but others are lost subtly. Its easier to remember the title of the movie, serial, songs that can trigger these memories. Well let us continue to chase our lost dreams. Its only human.

Hmm this week plan to go out and check out the GSS great singapore sale with Tab on Wed. Tenatively this is the plan. I would like to check out the prices for lap top. Cos I think its imperative to have one since I would have numerous assignments and living in a hostel. Dont think I wanna live for 2 semesters without access to the computer. Then my place is not big enough for another computer so despite its lack of computing power and higher price tag, I have to settle for a laptop. Also check out some of the sale and see if there are any bargains on clothes, smart casual type i guess and sport gears. Then after hanging around, at seven I am going for a free preview for an Animation course that I am interested but the price tag is hefty. At $4k, its a course that trys to let you change job to go into the animation industry. I cant at the moment, cos of my bond but definitely KIV, cos its really an area I am keen on. And also the longer time I have to KIV, means I can slowly save up for it. For now, I want to see how good is the course. The laptop and driving license is going to set me back financially poorer. So I am not keen to spend so much on something else. Then there is the Lazik surgery.... All very big-ticket items. Maybe its time for 4D or Toto.

Holidays Galore!

After slogging and slogging for 10 weeks, finally school holidays are upon us! For me, an untrained, I have the holidays purely for myself, whereas the perms have to go back on numerous days. I will gladly take what I can get now and enjoy it now.

Me and D were really biting our teeth to piah through this week cos it was quite intense and we are weary. Its just that in this industry, there is no way one can take leave at opportune timing to rest. Its like racing through a marathon, a ten-week one, before the whole chunk of leave arrives in one-shot. Then another race begins.

So far only have to go back for 2 days. I dont need to attend the camp cos they got enough staff. Hence no flying fox Hellbound for the record. Sign. Oh well, no loss.

SOME INTERESTING HAPPENINGS THIS WEEK:

1) Hara Kiri

Went for Jap class on Wed with Tab and Krynnder. Sensei gave us a piece of paper for us to complete the sentences. One of it was "When I am lonely, _________." My answer was common enough, "When I am lonely, I drink." I turned to Tab and asked her the term for the Japanese sucide whereby you cut the stomach with a samurai short sword.

"Is it Hari Kiri?"

"Hara Kiri" she replied.

"Thanks. Lemme write that down, got short-term memory."
(proceeds to write the term down on that piece of paper.)

Shortly after, Tab doodled on my piece of paper and drew a cartoon of me, doing the Hara Kiri. She drew it just below the "when I am lonely" question.

Later, Sensei wanted to collect the piece of paper from everyone. When I heard this, I was like "argh, oh no..." and Tab n Krynnder burst out laughing and laughing. They couldnt stop and as we sat right infront, she collected our papers first. Both of them passed their papers to her. Then I turned mine over and handed it to her, they burst out laughing again. So Sensei flipped my piece of paper and saw the Hara Kiri Pic of me..... and she laughed also.

Great, I can just imagine her going to the other senseis and showing the pic to the rest and laughing... Tab, I am going to doodle on your piece of paper the next time, even if my drawing sucks.

2) Hip-Hop

Went to the gym on Thurs and decided to sign up for the Hip-Hop classes. I guessed I want to learn something new. Also my feet are very stupid one, so decided to take up something to train up my moves. It will commence in mid June, every sunday morning. Hope it will turn out good or useful.

3) 2.4 Km Run

On Saturday morning, I had to go for the 2.4 Km run. Remember the one where I mistaken the date and went down for nothing. Yes that one. This time I got there and registered. There were many Educators there. I think I saw one of the Educator from my sec school. Well after some warm-up, we are off.

Its been a freaking long time since my last 2.4 km in JC. And though I train in the gym, on the treadmill, running on track is different. Cos on the treadmill, the ground moves whereas on the track, you gotta carry your bodyweight and push off the ground to move. So intially I was a bit unused to the movement and my legs feel slow. After a while got used to and continued. I was aiming for the bronze, below 15.45mins. But after the run, I didnt know what is my timing cos I was given a number only to hand in. I looked at my watch and gauged its about there. But I felt I was quite slow leh. My analogue watch didnt allow me to gauge my timing. So I dun really know whether I exceeded that timing. If so, there goes my prize money of $50. Not real happy with my running also cos I could run fast in the gym but outside on the track I was quite slow.... Will try to mix treadmill with track running from now on.

After handing in the numbers, I went straight home. One of the reason I didnt run well, was I had a bit of stomache during the fourth round... Man it is distracting and I couldnt push my pace faster... and after I reached home, had diarrhoea. Is this another bout of stomach flu again? Hope not. My holiday has just begun after this event. Couldnt really relax on Fri cos of this. Now that I am done, let the holidays begin.

4) Meet JC Friends

This week went for earlier jap class partly due to the 2.4 Km and also cos I am meeting JC friends for dinner. One of my guy friend S, is graduating and starting work as an Auditor. Of course he is from NTU. Also its after exams so those who were busy studying could meet up. Went to Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao... and had Noodle with Spare Ribs, Xiao Long Bao, Tao Sa Piah. Actually quite nice except for the long queue. Luckily S got a queue number earlier and soon we went in.

Our topics revolve around work, work expectations, financial planning and savings, health and fittness. Seem serious but its quite enjoyable to share what we learnt about these aspects. Cos most of us have already worked at least for a year. So we form our opinions and share with each other. Hmm interestingly I learnt something about signing for credit card.

Then a change of venue to Coffee Bean to continue. I must say we shared many points about money management and exercise and also about the pursuit of personal interests. Very enlightening. I forwarded to them the Simple Excel Spreadsheet I did up last year. It may help some to start their money managment. Managed to improve it a little bit more to be even more user-friendly and idiot-proof.

Utilizing the last vistages of her remaining energy, Hellbound dragged her body and positioned it infront of the computer. With a flicker of switches, the computer slowly hummed to life. Beside her in the living room, the American Idol was airing. Hellbound sat there, lifeless and staring emptily into the computer screen and at the television screen... It took a while before any activity was registered by Hellbound. With a flurry of fingers over the keyboard, these sentences appear...

"Watashi wa ima totemo stone desune! Kyo shigoto wa go ji han made owarimashita. Demo watashi wa gym e kimashita kara hachi ji han uchi e kaerimashita. Taihenna! Totemo nemui to onaka ga suki desu ne. Ashita kiita toki yasumi wa kimasu. Bansai!!!!"

(Now very stone. Today work end at 5.30pm. But went to gym so went home at 8.30pm. Sign. Very sleepy and hungry. After tomorrow is holiday. YEAH!)

Bored Bored Bored!!

Bored As Can Be...

Totemo Stone Ne!!!!

Today I went to the school's computer lab, doing relief for a class for 8 periods so I booked the comp lab and dumped them here for 3 periods. Why? Cos I am one with the stone. Am already very petrified.

The reason is that I slept at 3am the night before. Why the hell did I do that?

Well I went to the gym after work with a collegue and had an intense workout. Doint more stuff with abs, after that had dinner outside and Tab sms me to meet downtown since my tuition is done for now. Went home, had a bath and was out straight to Orchard. Hang around Far East and ended up in NYDC around 10 plus. For the third or fourth consecutive time, I tried to ordet the Mushroom Monster (no success previously), the waiter checked with the kitchen and said that there was a last one so we'll take that one. BUT a few minutes later, he came back and told me no more. Tab was laughing hard cos earlier she speculated 'scully the waiter comes back and tell u no more Mushroom...'

Grrrr.... I want my Mushroom Monster!!!! Why cant a person get to eat a bloody mushroom! If it was just one time fine, but its already three times in a row. Godamnit. Well i proceeded to fill out the feedback form stating that I am pissed that I cant get to eat their Mushroom Monster after 3 attempts. Not happy... The best part, when we left, I forgot to drop that feedback into their feedback box.

So around 11.30 plus made my way to the bus stop for the last bus home. Was very stoned already so I closed my eyes. Didnt realize that I fell soundly asleep and overshot my bus stop. I woke up with a jerk and just pressed the button to alight in a daze. Ended up near River Valley Sec but the BIG problem is that I had only a few bucks left in my wallet and there is no bloody UOB and OCBC atms around in the neighbourhood. So there I was in the HDB neighbourhood walking around trying to find the atm to draw some money for me to ride a cab home. Walked around for fifteen minutes with no luck. It was around 12.30++ but there is no soul around. found some shops but there was only POSB Atm... Grr continued walking then I discovered that I walked for big round and was almost back to my original spot. Bloody hell, just when I was about to contemplate walking to Jurong east, a bus zoomed past me. That was 51! Arg... hastening my steps, I moved quickly towards the bus stop just infront of me. Looking over my shoulders, I saw 176! I am saved!!! I hopped on, grateful that I didnt really miss all my last buses. I got off one block before my place and made it home safely albeit a bit pissed. Of course by then all signs of sleep had already vapourised... went online and downloaded stuff until around 3am then went to sleep.

So of course this morning, woke up super stoned. My head feels kinda funny and light. I am too stoned to do much. Almost overshot my mrt stop again.... Damn. I was glad that its friday cos I really want to sleep and cos today by right have 4 free periods at the start of the day. Was intending to rest a bit to recover but when I just went into the office, one of the hod passed me the relief timetable. I had to take the notorious class, remember the class where i threw a chair to shut them down. Yep that class and for 8 straight periods. Went striaght to book the comp lab for 3 periods. Didnt feel up to it to take them PE so no PE for them. Which means I dun have to hunt down the PE teachers to get the PE room key from them. Spent about 1 of my free period preparing some stuff like cross word puzzles, IQ questions. The other was spent stoning and eating my breakfast.

While we were in the comp lab, most students played games like Adventure Quest, Neopets, Cartoon Network, Barbie. After 1.5 period, a few got bored. I was checking my email when I came across this game forwarded by a friend.

Crimson Room - a flash game where the goal is to escape the room

Viridian Room - a continuation of the Crimson Room.

So these students suddenly were very engrossed in playing the crimson room. They cant get enough. When the recess bell rang, they wanted to play some more. I refused and sent them for recess. Then after recess, did with them the IQ question and some Sec level maths question

eg How many squares are there in a chess board.

Some think that they are damn arrogant. Once they manage to get one answer, they think that their answer is the only correct one. So they keep on saying out loud, I know I know.... disturb their friends who are still doing. And keep on boasting to their friends that they have the answer. I reminded them that what these people have is an answer which may not be necessarily the correct answer. To be fair, I went down the rows and got everyone to give me their answer. After 37 answers, all wrong. Even those smart alecs who think that they have the answer. Hmm I discovered that this is a good time waster for the best class. U cant even think to ask the last class this question.

Later after the day ended, I was drained. Went for lunch with collegues and went home. Supposed to meet one collegue for gym at 5.30pm but when I woke up after my nap, its already 6.15pm. Rushed there only to be stuck in a jam for ten minues. By the time I went in and saw the collegue, she was already done for the day. Apologized and went about training. Met D who trains there on Fri. And met P, a primary school classmate! Its like 12 years since I last saw her. What a coincidence. Got her contact details. Hmm suddenly the world seemed small.

Oh one more thing worth mentioning.

I wont be free after Jun 20.

According to the registration package I received from NIE.

"any untrained already serving in school have to return to the school on days when they do not have to report to NIE, until the course begins on 25th Jul"

in addition, some stuff are happening in the last week of the june holidays. Which means I have a shorter holiday than the poly pple yet have to work until 25th Jul like them. WTBF!!!!

According to the appointment letter, I was to be released from 20th june. At first I thought that the term starts earlier. But now things are so different from expectations. Things wont be so bad if got to teach just one more month but its the crap Promotional Activities lined up in that month that I wanted to miss. There is another big scale one planned in that month. And if i am there for the whole month of Jul, I would have to be involved. Given that my CCA is performing again, hope its not another repeat of the previous episode. Then I dun know if there are other responsibilities laid out. Which means while others start the term well rested, I will be drained. Cos on the 24th Jul then released from the school. Man things are not going well this year. Some of the staff are already discontented and are thinking of transferring. Its just when does the last straw break the camel's back.

Writing just for writing sake....

Nothing else much exciting happening to me ever since I got grey.

Bored nowadays cos exams are round the corner and in fact this week is the exam week. So for my tuition, I am down for intensive tuitioning until this wed. And for my Educator job, I have to go round to invigilate papers. Its really stupid cos I have to stone for the entire 4-5 periods. Cant do anything otherwise they might cheat etc. So i usually take a look at the paper and go

'hmmm this is a tough qn... did i even learn this in pri?'

Taihenna for today's kids.

Incidentally the 19th June is my last day of attachment to my current school, ie the last day they can touch me. Which means its my freedom day, only that my freedom ends on the 20th June when the term in NIE begins. Then the crash-course of 14 mods in 2 sems begins...



With the star war craze going around, I sms Tab

"Come to the DARK SIDE... of teaching"

Then I thot of more crappy lines....

"May the chalk be with you." (chalk is outdated, now use markers)

and

while doing the oxygen-tank breathing act of Darth Vader....

"Kids....(breathe, breathe)... I am your TEACHER."

Man what am I thinking of...


And today while chatting with 2 other collegues, D and another perm. The topic went to Gothic dressing, Minahs and even to Cosplay. Then both remarked that I SHOULD try out cosplay cos I can carry the look. Got the look, built and height... I wonder what is it that I wear at school that inspires that idea? Or is it my current long fringe that looks a bit cool except I am too lazy to gel it up...

Err I dun mind trying it out cos after NIE, i think no more chance to dye hair, wear funky clothes, metal chains and no time for other things but just cant seem to decide on the character. No current character I am very into at the moment. Then have to portray the character well so have to fit the image. Not to mention, I dun sew. The collegue mentioned some costume rental... maybe can get the address.

Well that was just a short chat before I went up for class. It was a nice chiller after a horrendous 50 mins of going thru the Science paper with my class. The behaviour is getting more out of hand. Too bad, I cant give it to them. Or else they can be taught some discipline... My current mentor does the punishing, she advise me not to cos I am not perm etc. Oh well. Just shout and shout. After I went up, I had to continue going thru cos it was halfway done. Then my current mentor helped me scold the trouble makers. Finished and off I ran to the gym. First had some menom with collegues then went for my twice-weekly workout. Hope to shed those kilos soon. Will add working out at home also to train my abs and triceps.

From http://ugotmail.no-ip.com/personal/demotivators.htm, a website with demotivators. Very funny. Some very good ones. I like this. 

Silly things of the First Degree

Hmm ever since I got Grey, I have been so distracted by the music that I did some of the stupidest things in my life. To top it off, all three incidents occurred one after another on 3 consective days.

No 1 (Rated as a normal stupidity)

On friday, after invigilating papers, I was blasting music using Greyearth then I almost forgot about my recess duty. Fifteen minutes into the recess, I rushed out to continue the duty. Sign, not that I want to forget but last term mine was on Monday so now changed to Friday, getting very forgetful.

No 2 (Rated as a Very stupid act which some of us might commit once every 20 years)

On Saturday, after jap class. I was on my way home going into the lift. Again I was listening to Grey. There were 2 girls who came in. They pressed both floor 5 and 9. So I kinda stoned. I vaguely registered that they got off at the 5th floor. Then continued stoning.

'Ding' the lift arrived. Immediately I pressed the 9th floor absent-mindedly, wondering why the lift didnt arrive on the 9th floor. Then realized that the 9th floor button didnt light up at all. I continued pressing, cursing why the lift button seemed to be spoilt. So i stayed in the lift, pressing the buttton, wondering why the lift door didnt close to bring me to the 9th floor. Then I saw a guy who wanted to use the lift. So I got out, pressed for the other lift and when it came, got in and pressed the 9th floor button again. Again it didnt light up and i repeatedly pressed it. Suddenly it struck me, I might be on the 9th floor. So i looked out of the open lift and saw the sign, 9th floor!

God!!!! I am a bloody idiot. I was pressing the 9th floor button all the time when I was already on the 9th floor! Of course that is why the lift door didnt close at all. Man, I was so embarassed. Luckily nobody bear witness to this stupidity.

No 3 (Rated as a Very Very stupid act that any sane person shouldnt do in their entire lifetime)

A collegue asked me on thursday whether I want to join this 2.4km run/walk for all Educators. So I just signed up and copied down the date,time and venue on a piece of paper which i stuck into my wallet. In my mind, I remembered the date as 28th April, Sat. So I went about my work with this date stuck in my mind. Even told a few collegues that I am running this sat.

So on Friday, after Incident no 2, I used streetdirectory.com to search for the buses to take. I actually took out the piece of paper to check the venue. So i found the buses to take and went to sleep at 2.30am.

At 5.45am, Sat morning. I woke up and prepared and went out. Met a collegue who lived in my area. He was jogging. I bid him goodbye and hopped onto a taxi to clementi central. From there, i took a bus. When i reached the designated stadium, I saw less than 10 people at using the track. Hmm I thought to myself. Maybe I am early but isnt this too little people since its almost seven. So i walked around to look for the registration booth. Nothing. I walked around and asked the security guard if I was at the old nie. He told me yes but i dun see anymore people coming. This is strange, i would expect to see my collegues. SOMETHING is wrong.

So I walked back to the track. Still the same few people, no one familiar. Walked up to SMU, tried looking for a public phone cos didnt bring my hp. Only found a card phone but I had no card. Went back to the stadium, saw some people preparing some prize table cum reception. Went up to one lady and asked her what event is being held today. She answered 'Nanyang girl's marathon, ending at this venue.' Hmm so it is not possible for 2 events to be held at the same venue, so I decided to go home. In my heart, I started suspecting that I had gotten the wrong date. When I finally got home, I went straight for that piece of paper. It was written there 28th May, Sat. Grrrr.... Good grief!!!! I am an IDIOT. It was there all the time yet when I saw it last nite, my mind didnt registered the date. Somehow I saw it as 28th April! If that was not enough, its 30th April, Sat NOT 28th April which would be a thursday. This is really stupid. I wasted 2.5 hours and 3 bucks on taxi, and some on bus fare. Bloody hell. The only good thing is that I managed to listen to a fair bit of songs on Grey.

To top it off, I went back to sleep cos I am sleep-deprived. I muttered to my mom who was going to the doctor, if she can, buy me lunch and if cannot make it back, to call me. Cos i have tuition in the afternoon. Off I dozed. After some time, I was woken up by the phone ringing... I had rang many times already. I got out of bed and walked to the living room to get it. Just as my hand was about to touch the receiver, it went dead. WTH (what the hell), nvm suspect it to be my mom but i went back to sleep.

After some time, I was again awaken by the sound of the ringing phone. I decided to ignore it. It kept ringing. So i repeated the same action and got up. This time I managed to get it.

Hello?

Hey bought u your lunch.

Okay bye.

Went straight back to sleep. I fell fast asleep.

Ring!!!!!!!!!!! Ring!!!!!!!!!

Got up and got the phone, it went dead before i could reach it. WTF (what the fuck!) Went back to sleep again.

RING RING!!!!!!!

I woke again. Decide really to ignore it. Let it ring for all I care. So it did. But cos my home phone is really loud so its kinda of irritating after it kept ringing for a while. Alright alright already! So i got up and expectantly the phone went dead as I was just about to pick it up. WTBF (what the bloody fuck) Cos i am still sleep-deprived so i went back to sleep again for the upteemth time.

Again I was woken up by the familiar and predictable ringing. I dashed out of bed, intent to catch it so that bloody phone wont ring again later.

Hello....

Your mom hasnt seen the doc yet. So lunch u settle yourself.

Were u the one who kept on calling. Everytime just as I want to pick up u hang up. Then u woke me up so many times.

If your mom hadnt asked me to call you, I wouldnt have.

Bye.

GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! Bloody fuck! I half suspected that my dad wants to practice using his hp cos he is still not familiar with his hp. Man it was 12.10pm. I had to go out around 12.30pm. So of course i know that if they are not back already, then i got to settle lunch myself. Goddammit. I went and prepared for tuition.

All in all, I reckoned I woke up around 7 times and managed to pick up the phone only 2 times. Man what the hell is wrong with me? Is it some damn siong unlucky spell on me. I better stay home until my luck changes.