Very Intense food cravings... Urgh

Thanks to having eat mostly porridge for about 2.5 weeks, my cravings are going through the roof. I am having intense craving for savory meals - like omelette
sushi, sushi rice, shabu shabu and yakiniku.

It didn't help that I was looking thru the free Jap magazines at work. Got one especially featured a bunch of restaurants that offers either shabu shabu - including Ohsumi. Yum plus see all the year - offers they have for an all-you-can-eat buffet (with time limit 1.5-2hrs) But those are not cheap. The cheapest ranges from $48 to $70 plus and even higher. But so tempting. But I know my stomach can't handle...

The sushi craving is so bad that I can literally taste the omelette sushi at the tip of my tongue. But it's a wet day, dunno if my current stomach can handle even cooked sushi. Been eating lots of porridge. Still having stomach pangs and still diarrhea-ry. Arch... I can only plan to eat when I am physically able to stomach them. *sobs sobs* In the meantime, they are hovering over my thoughts and I can only salivate and imagine how good they taste.

Diarrhea for a week - man...

Man... The diarrhea still on. After mc on wed, better. Stomach still got pangs, but okay. Friday mostly okay. I even OT until 10pm.

But dunno why today, just before guitar, stomach. Diarrhea. I ate a charcoal pill. Then head out with sis who needed to go to Clementi Mall. By the time the bus came, I called the music school to inform not going. Maybe have to do make-up cos missed 2 lessons. One last Sat due to hangover, one this week is diarrhea. True enough once we reached the mall, I headed to find a toilet.

I had plans today. To go for guitar, to catch up since I missed lesson last week. After guitar, intending to eat the nice wanton mee and dessert. Then head to Orchard area to buy some stuff and head to Parco millennia to buy belts... All my plans went flushing down the toilet bowl...

Sian I was still thinking of heading to town after settling my stomach but it was not to be. Still feel my stomach rumbling so I resignedly went home. Not before buying a new water bottle and a calculator from popular. Seeing and said hi to an ex-colleague n a student. I headed home to stay at home...

Sigh... I guess it will be another week of porridge. Not that I don like eating the more 清淡. In fact I like the watery porridge alot. With a bottle of preserved chai xin. That's at home. Unless I rebelled and went to eat this super delicious chicken rice at my place twice for dinner. At work, I discovered this nice porridge stall and have been eating that everyday since last wed. Been dabaoing until the stall holders recognize me. I rotate and tried the century egg pork, chicken and fish. Still prefer the century egg pork one the most. Guess I will be eating that for another week plus have to work next Sunday, but Mon off...

On Medical leave - my second one this whole year

As the academical year is from April to next year's March. Term 3 is from Jan to March. My last mc is in Term 1 (April to July). So this being my second mc in Term 2 (Sept to end-Dec) it meant having just 2 a year. This is already a huge reduction compared to previously as a MOE educator. I remembered having mc as often as once a month on average but less than 12 cos of the holiday months. Guess up to 10. It's a five-fold decrease. But that doesnt mean I don't fall sick. In fact I still do, just much lesser than before. And when I do, I see the doc but don't take mc. Just try to rest it off before heading still to work. The less severe ones, I have recovered by then.

But the more severe ones like this diarrhea, I held on until it's the last lesson where my plan was to give them the time to do self-study anyway and just throw in the white towel. I had diarrhea yesterday too but lesser. So when I went to dabao lunch, I bought charcoal pills and ate 1. It was effective, no diarrhea but I was a bit light-headed giddy by the end of the day. I knew that the next day, I should go doc n get mc cos though that charcoal plugged my bowels temporarily, it didn't mean I was cured. Plus I hung on so that I ready finished all that is to finish.

True enough though I was alright in the early morning as I called the workplace to inform them of being sick n on medical leave. By ten, I had diarrhea twice. Stomach felt bloated n uncomfortable. Saw docs, got medicine, ate lunch and slept. Woke up by stomachache and diarrhea again. Kinda glad I didn't make myself head to work. Tomorrow n Friday are the exams. I still am responsible for marking the bulk of the questions so I got to OT on Friday. Still got a huge pile of files and books to check frantically then. Didn't want to strain myself further. Better rest today to continue to continue the fight tomorrow.

A whole series of woes...

I suffered from being unwell since last last wed. Finally after a week plus, mostly recovered. Then I did the stupid thing of drinking too much from the tower of beer.

To skip all the gross part. I got drunk, puked, had emptied my stomach yet still retching up lots of phlegm, sent home by Quetzal, helped upstairs by Tab. I walked in a spiny way to the toilet. After a few more mouths of phlegmy spit, I made my druken sickly way to the bed. Then it was complete lights out.

I woke up at 8am, feeling okay. Took a moment to orientate and remember why exactly I was in bed, a bit of spit on the floor. Got up clean up. Plus the toilet also. My mom still in Msia. My dad and sisters both still sleeping. Managed to clean up and then it started. This thing which I later learn is called Hangover.

Man it was Hellish. Stomach retching and I mer-lioned out bile, any water I drink and lots of phlegm n liquid. Couldn't keep any liquid down and the retching comes in waves from 9am until 2pm. This is actually worse than the night before cos u r fully conscious, bile tastes horrible, headache forming, and extremely uncomfortable. Finally not retching around 2pm and fell asleep. Woke up 3pm plus and could hold down liquid. Drank porridge water dabaoed by my sis n bits of water. Evening I ate some of the porridge cooked by my sister. Just porridge n light soya sauce.

Sunday I was fine enough to go dabao my own porridge from the zhar cai stall with some dishes. Bought a few bottles of preserved chai xin and 2 packs of fruit juice. Stayed at home after. Drank a litre of fruit juice n porridge. Just stayed indoors in bed to rest as much since still gotta work.

Monday (today), if I had any remote idea that the timetable is changed until I have from the initial 3 to 5 periods, plus that I tio diarrhea, and had to run to the toilet a total of 11 times, b4 and after every lesson, then I would have surely taken the bloody mc. I head out to buy lunch using my sole free period and bought po chye pills, porridge. Sian!!! By the end of the day, stomach settled and ass hurts. Dabaoed dinner for sis and dad. Bought bread, muffin and a coffee Swiss roll. I heck care and ate a plate of chicken rice and later a slice of Swiss roll. Nevermind stomach acted up. Heck I only had fruit juice for breakfast, ate half the porridge for lunch. Sian!!! So 'reward' myself for such a literally Shitty day. Stomach better now. Trying to drink more liquid. Think all these would need more time to clear up. Think my underlying flu from last week now move to digestive tract. I am trying to hang on a day more, then can collapse. By then finished mostly everything. I don't want to even think about another 5 more weeks of this.

Sick n sickly still

Mu workplace one can start seeing the seams unfurling as the long marathon term drags on. I hear more colleagues coughing around. A few were quite sick but they still came to work. One wore a mask. Soon I felt unwell, sitting in the air-con staffroom... And I succumbed after a few days of feeling down. By Last Thursday, I felt sick enough to ask to skip cca after work n head to the docs. I was given 6 days of medication including antibiotics. I dabaoed dinner, ate and concussed until the next day.

I was 'well-enough' to head to work where a Dr Jekyll and Hyde situation ensues. I was alright until after lunch where things just headed downhill. I managed to dong Friday. Went home, ate meds, slept. This basically repeated itself over the long weekend.

Except Sat where I headed out for guitar. Even then I felt like crap as the hours went by. I had a good lunch of wanton mee n Logan ice dessert. While trying to kill time, I headed to Isetan n bought sushi to munch. Then stoned at Shaw. Luckily the top of Shaw had seating n I had bought a storybook along. Felt tired n miserable cos of the recurring sickness. By dinnertime, was better. Didn't stay out late. Managed to reach home by 11.30pm. Slept.

Sunday n Monday are all spent at home. I still went next door to dabao meals for family n myself cos mom went back to her hometown. Don't know when she'll be back. I wasn't well enough to head out. Decided to rest. All my plans came to a standstill - gym, heading out, job search. I am not at capacity to handle all these if interviews come about. In fact, my attitude is 'I don't fucking care about anything...'

Worse still when work resumed on Tue. I am having the same struggle of being well n unwell. Usually by after lunch, I was unwell. Hung in there cos just b4 exams. Still got things to finish. Finally today, my lightest day, I asked to leave earlier just b4 dismissal to see the doc. The past few days, I wasn't able to get a number on my way home from work. If I just did a walk-in, would have long queue. By then, I was already resting in bed.

Got more meds but no antibiotics? So now in my room, trying to sleep since 6pm. End up wary ing anime and blogging. Feel better now. Tomorrow there's a change in schedule, so its my heaviest day... WTF... I shall just do as much as I can, then by noon, if unwell, going home. This has affected my teaching cos I am not at a 100%, not alert, not inspired, attitude at the back of my mind is 'why am I doing this?'... Yar not very productive though I still cleared quite a bit of work. Lesson wise, I shall just aim for a mediocre lesson, it's 3-in-a-row...