Monday, February 26, 2007

Feeling downz over the weekends but friends help me tide over

Friday
Yar was kinda feeling down. In fact one of the lowest in months on friday. Had an argument with a student's parent on hp whilst I had just arrived was was walking around in Marina Square while waiting for the rest to turn up for Quetzal's bdae dinner.

To cut the incident short, it was resolved over the phone but it left a damn bad taste in my mouth, spoiling whatever TGIF mood I had for the weekends. Not to mentioned, i had a few missed calls which I refuse to call back. Just switch off the phone and intend to on it only on Monday. I kinda had no mood to walk much after that. I just headed down to "Smokeapelli Rastafari" a shop with the beach theme to buy another tribal bracelet for myself. Ended buying 2 keychains and a marine blue tribal bracelet for $10. The words on one the keychains read "I'm stoned" that sums up how I wanted to be. After that I headed to the 7-11 to grab a drink and stone on a chair outside Cartel. Was re-reading my tarrot reading to find if this was 'part of the deal' and to glimpse deeper meaning.

But I managed to squeeze that negative aspect out of my mind whilst the rest finally arrived. We had a good dinner at Cartel with tarrot reading for Quet n Candle regarding love. Basically similar reading - to resolve some internal issues first or things will repeat itself. Err didnt dare to do for Krynnder n bf, in case something not so good propped up.

Anyway we continued over at Azabu, over hot tea and dessert. Esp with readings for job prospects using Candle's deck. Me? Fool(R), 3 Cups (R) and 7 Pentacles (U). Supposedly things will not be good but will turn up better eventually. Dunno hope the good comes quickly. Anyway career was really on everybody's minds, and everyone did a reading for their jobs.

A walkaway from the meeting. Maybe its good to try out Toto. The $3.50 thing. Think when I reached home, I did some light resistance exercise to start my resolve to squeeze in exercises and reading and guitar.

Saturday
Was still kinda down but didnt maple. Just slept alot cos very tired. Didnt do anything constructive but rest and read some comices. Think I took out the guitar to tune it and played 6+ songs before fingers pain.

Sunday
Was still feeling sulky and down cos thinking what other crap was in-stored for me once I go back. The unanswered calls didnt help. Thinking about those didnt help. So with many things weighing still on my mind, I headed out to meet my JC friends in Clark Quay area around 3pm.

We went to Settler's cafe and played 2 games. A no-brainer block building game which collapses and 'Settlers'which we had played before. A resource game. With us were Shub, who will be getting married. So we quizzed her on her partner. We throughly enjoyed the game so much so, whatever things on my mind went right out the window. "Basket! Shit! (*$#&$#" when we threw a lousy throw of the die, no one wanted to trade their resource or bargained for more. Haha. We stayed for 3hrs and I was the ultimate winner, accumulating 10 points and winning the game b4 the time expired. It was so fun!

Anyway after that we went to eat at some restaurant in Clark Quay and talked alot. Many talks centred on topics like marriage, catching up on each others' life and happenings, career and investment, even health. Interestingly out of the 7 of us, 5 have had a recent change of jobs. Me being the only one stuck cos of bond, the other staying on due to increment. The general outlook seems to be most want to stay on with their new or current job for another 2yrs. To 'dom' through this period to save up, gain exposure. Kinda sad at hearing that. I did also voice out my unhappiness with my job/load/hrs/distance. They told me to call for transfer. Think I will try it again. The outing was so memorable that it was kinda sad that everyone has to work the next day, hence it ended around 10pm. Well I didnt go back alone. Most of us stayed in the West, hence all took the same bound train and chatted more on the way home.

I reached home and decided to clear one piece of work I dabaoed. Cos I anticpate myself to be too busy and short of time to do that work. So did up the namelist for the Sports day, consolidated the events once and for all from the scribblings. Then printed out. At first thought I needed to even write out the names and the events for the consent form. THEN I remembered, I am in-charge. So I decided to 'arrow' someone to do that job. Cos I had done alot liao, do up consolidated list and already printed out the consent forms. Hence on Monday, I just put on the colleuges' table and told her to split among her team to distribute. Which she did.

Monday
Not a good day. Very noisy and inattentive when I went thru CA paper. Think they know so much, fine, screw urselves when a similiar question turns up. Shouted myself hoarse. Then I got a piece of paper, with my name on it. Kena arrowed for some course which entails extra work eg ppt/lesson one. I was looking at that paper and thinking to myself "Why is it the other pple are at Coordinator level and me only a BT is inside?" WTF!!! Kinda put my mood in a fouler one than it already was. Finished the first half of the day.

Had a second half due to CCA. I was kinda pissed off and fuming by then and also starting to feel light-headed and nauseous. Didnt eat my brunch until near 4pm, survived on istonic drink.

I had to try on one equipment, a short briefing cum meeting, then go onboard a bus with Seed projects, then found out the training schedule for the cca. The coach said, as per normal, mon, wed and sat. So I had to do up consent form. Then the cca head told me some dates for some events that are like lagi near, so have to do bus-booking forms. Then I go and check attendance of the cca, which was quite bad due to the CA. Hence I happily and in a pissed manner, cancelled the rest of the training for the week.

Yay! Showed off my power. Cancelled out some dates from the consent form, handed over to students, talked over with overall in-charge, finished up the bus-booking form, handed over. Packed my bags and went home. Clocked out at 3.30pm, my earliest in the 2 months. I have left at 2pm before but that was for course only which entailed ending around 5.30pm. I resisted the urge to go home by cab. Reached home 4.30pm, ate my brunch and went to have a nap. Woke up for dinner at 8pm feeling better and bathed.

Now feeling a bit better to blog about it. Dabaoed one paper. Will try to do some of it. Then read my next chpt of Technical Investment then zzzz. Think I go read first then do the marking. That tranfer issue thingy think will call soon. Will scold them upside down if they give me crap answers again. Am not having any Mr Nice disposition nowadays. Too much shit on my platter liao.

Tom will be another long day. Have some massive fire evacuation thingy, real life simulation type. I kena the search-and-find team, so have to walk and climb up and down one. Now only wished this week will be a bit lighter with no cca.

Another walkaway, I have the POWER! (He-man line)Listening to the nice songs of The Gazette to feel happier. K good nite.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Happiness is a Choice, but Do I really have the choice?

This week is just merely 3 days, cos of the CNY holidays on mon and tues. Yet I already feel burnt out from just 2 measley days of work. Can you believe it?

Basically its the same bloody problem all over. Staying back until at least 530pm plus even 6pm on both days. Wed was meeting plus CCA, busy clearing marking which seems perpetually never-ending. Then was so tired that I was knocked out by 8pm. I wanted to 'rest a bit' and laid on the bed only to end up sleeping until 12.30am, then I read 1 chpt of Technical Analysis and went back to sleep. Nothing else done at all.

Today was really the ultimate crappiest day. Today supposedly my 'lightest' day. BUT as things go, not to be my way.

Basically to cut the long story short, instead of 5 periods, I ended up doing 8 periods. Dunno where that co-worker disappeared to, but had a major test. So I ended up leading them back and admistrating the test for 5 periods when I was supposed to do only 2 periods. Then followed by relief. In between inviligating, I was marking frantically to clear my load.

THEN if only the story ends, it wont be so bad. Then there was a mixup with my duty. Supposedly to be up for something but then they made a mistake. It had me running up and down 4 stories several times. Knee problem arising duh. Then as I wasnt down for that event, I was to cover another crap which crapped up.

Basically those co-workers didnt do the selection of participants last week, then they just blur blur asked the pupils to come AGAIN. Fish lah. Dun even know how to do their job ar? So in the end, out of those collegues who did our part already, only 2 (me and another) could make it cos the rest down for the other event. Hence we ended up doing the selection again. See Civil Service for you. Inefficient to the core. Bloody fuck, there goes another day. So immediately after the thing was done, I packed up and went off. Around 5.15pm, another day in 'paradise'. Only consolation was that I reached home near 6pm, bathed and ate my dinner peacefully. Hardly have time to eat at work. No decent lunch hour at all. Lunch can be a non-affair. I subsist on a liquid diet of istonic drink to last until its possible for me to eat, near 2-3pm.

If anything that I did to make me 'happier' was on wed evening when I went to search for some music videos (PV promotional videos) of some J-Rock bands that I liked and chanced upon some pretty good ones. Its been so long since I've heard new J-Rock songs and watched their PVs. It did make me happier. Man I listened to the songs and hear the damn good guitar playing, I also want to play the Electric guitar like that.... Signz

New bands that I am listening to now is "The Gazette", which sounds and imitates a bit of "Dir En Grey" which was a very good jrock band until it turned damn heavy metal, ie the lead is mumbling, screaming, shouting only in the song plus guitar chords screeching etc...so that band kinda of fall of my list.

What I kinda of like this band is not only for the looks, but the versatility. Cos they tried doing songs from different genres eg metal, jrock, modern etc and both their guitarists looks good and they play very well. There is always a guitar solo in their songs.

Some PV from different genres they did. Some are the PVs are nice, mostly like the songs more than the looks. The guitar and bass and drum sounds good. Makes me itching to pick up music. Bubu

Ballad - Relia (Very nice tune, i want to play the piano!!! The guitarist looks like Cloud, nice hair man, nice guitar solo)


Very Western Rock - Filith in Beauty (sounds like some english rock groups)


Rock & Roll (a bit of blue) - Silly God Disco


Poppish song (bits of blue) - Shadow


Typical J-Pop style -Cassis (Shuai Ge, teach me how to strum like that...

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

A nice 4 days break

Its been a good long and lazy break. A glorious 4 days of rest and decadance.

New Years Eve (Sat)
Family spent the eve in Singapore, eating a steamboat lunch, with more than 15 items. Then dinner was again the same dishes but made into cooked form. Mapled many hours. No work done at all. Think i lvled again.

CNY (Sun)
Family minus me n my sister went back to Msia. We set to finish up the still lots of food from the steam boat. In the afternoon, me n my sister decided to go down to Chinatown. Wasnt sure if there would be anything still but we headed down via bus 143. It was deserted. With exception of some Jap, Chinese, Caucasian tourists and a few non-chinese-ran stalls, the rest were all closed. It was so quiet like a dead-town. Haha we walked around and eventually reached Fullerton then headed down to Clark Quay. Again mostly closed, but it was a nice walk under the warm sun. We headed back and reached home around 2pm. Didnt do much but watch tv and mapled. Feasting on nice pineapple tarts and cashew nuts and packet drinks. Dinner was again food from the fridge.

First day (Mon)
Lunch was an extravagent affair. Ever heard of Abalone Magee Mee? Well me and my sister ate just that. It was abalone left from the steamboat. Had orders from mom to finish it. Hence we decided to cook it with mee. Actually it is pretty tasteless. Dun think I will ever pay $40 for a can ever. Anyway it was a gift. Dinner was dabao western food from hawker centre nearby. Mapled and lvled. Was so bored that I was half watching LOTR-Twin towers on vcd, and half maling. Anyway slept pretty well.

2nd day (Tue)
Last day of good rest. Had a lunch of kway chap with sister. She went out visiting, leaving me home alone. Bubu. Had a bath and decided to do some Tarrot reading, for the year ahead in terms of job n maybe romance. For your information, mine is the Lover deck, good esp for human relationships. (Incidentally, last time when me, Tab and Candle were the "sandokujin" I did a reading for Tab, which hinted of a relationship.... true enough.... though at that time she was wondering - where is the guy anyway?)

Well err did a few readings about various things, think relationship nothing much, but the main overall msg seems to be "Happiness is a choice" and "Balance". Need to find my balance and forge on ahead, not to be distracted by material gains, other pple's views and must make the change and do what I really want. Hmm... alot of things to think about. Its been a few years of owning that deck. Everytime I do that particular formation about "My wishes and direction", interestingly it does reflect how I felt at that particular point in time. Expect to do more tarrot readings after this advertisment.

Think I am going to take it easy, even if maple, is not to level. Just play a bit then finish up some work, ie lesson plan for last week and this week. Now watching LOTR- Return of the king. Anyway more sleep is in the agenda. Hmm time to re-examine my timetable to fit in some exercise and maybe guitar course (or play a bit at home) or even reading that technical analysis book. Think can do that if I only maple on weekends and dun overwork myself so I can still last longer. Think I should invest some, so that after that 2year 10mths more, I can have a nice sum (but of course cannot be reckless) to maybe take things easy for a bit? Hmm for now, lemme enjoy the rest of this long and welcome weekend break. Was near the breaking point earlier. Happy CNY to all!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy "V" Day?

Bubu on MC due to still having rashes over the limbs and my right hand was still swollen, some blisters forming. VERY GLAD to be on mc cos the bloody week was so hectic. Yest was a full day, so dont have time to see doctor. Today was to be another one, so dun mind giving it a miss. Saw the doctor and ate lunch around 11am, then slept after eating the medicine until 4pm. Man I really need a break from all this crap. AND I am not going back to mark this Saturday. It is really not worth it. I owe myself a break. Dun care, CNY break is all mine.

Anyway yesterday was that time of the year again when the world arounds celebrated romance and the finding of a partner be it for a relationship or for life. All are rejoicing except for the singles. Me being one of them. Envious? Not really.

I woke up in the morning and noticed my right hand was red and swollen. My sister had told me earlier that there is a mosquito that likes to bite her fingers, so as I examined my swollen hand, I thought to myself, "Bloody mosquito, bite until like tat? Later I come back to send you to hell..." Bubu it was kinda itchy and flexing my fingers was a bit stiff due to the swollenness. A colleuge noticed my swollen hand whilst I was marking and told me to see the doctor. How could I? I had a course til the end of the day? BUBU.... i need to buy 4D and Toto. Was calculating the odds during the meeting.

After work, went for meeting, 3/4 thru, left for course. The course was rather boring and partly due to being on "V" day, many werent paying attention. Less than halfway through, me and my collegues decided to mark some of the work we dabaoed. I was half listening and marking. Managed to almost finished it by 5.20pm. Managed to talk to another fellow educator, whom after some exchange where I told her, I went back to mark on saturday. She replied "I've realized its really not worth it... " After more exchanges and at the end of the course, we bid each other farewell and happy V day, she told me to be happier. Haha. Nice person. She realized lower pri is easier than upper pri. Me too.

Then midway I msged the usual group of friends to see if there were any "lonely souls" like me, with programmes planned. In the earlier days of Uni, "V" day was celebrated as friendship day for us. BUT, as time goes on, some of us got attached, whilst the rest are still swinging singles (though still without life, esp me)

Well I met up with Tab, Quet, Candle and Fake Husband to go over to his house to watch a movie. Before that I ended up in Mos burger at J8, where I ate the new salmon burger. Quite tasty and bought their new CheeseCake Sticks - rare cheese flavour. Not bad except dun really like the little bits of red and green appricot inside. I ate then finished marking that remainder of the stack. Was left with one stack of composition, which I refuse to touch and even today while on MC, decided it was not for me. Rather rest.

Anyway there was a bit of drama over Tab's romance, which was kinda dramatic, and the result was I changed my pants 2 times. One from my long pants to Tab's shorts. Later from Tab's shorts to Fake Husband's shorts. Err more more details ask the accused. We watched the film, Goodbye Lenin, not a bad show. The lenghts the male lead had to go through for his mom, really show his fillialness. In the end, I took a bus back then switched over to cab. Ended up at home around 12.30am. Promised myself that if my hand was still swollen the next day, I would take mc and go see the doctor.

And tom, it was still swollen and got blisters. Hence the mc.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Another glorious weekend came and went by in a flash

Yar another week whereby I headed back to clear marking on a Sat morning, instead of sleeping until the sun burns a hole in my butt. Man is this worth it? I really am seriously doubting this... But it cant be helped cos by last Fri, I was already fully booked for the following week up til Thurs. What this means is that I have those really-waste-my-time-activities that take up all my time from 2-5.30pm, which means I cant mark at all.

The only problem is I have some marking that cant wait anymore. So I tried to clear on Sat. Cant clear. BUBU

Anyway after the workplace closed at 12.30pm, I was again left with 3hrs to kill. Seriously I cant seem to 'waste time' efficiently without Maple or my bed. So after wandering from Hereen to Cineleisure, I walked behind the Alleybar and headed into the back, curious about the buildings at the back. I landed up in those shop-house type residential estate. Then made my way to Centrepoint. I felt aimless and sian. Cos I would have much prefered to do something else but there was not enough time for me to do that then travel for Jap. Hence the so-called 'wandering and exploring thingy'. At this point of time, I had used up only 1.5hrs. With another 1.5hrs to go, I decided to make my way to International plaza and stone in the BK. Which was what I did. Bought a drink, and almost fell asleep. Shortly after Tab came.

After Jap, and a pending 2 weeks of break, we headed down to Bugis. Cos I suggested SteamBoat, think drink Chinese soup instead of western soup (eg Soup Spoon) We walked one round past numerous steam boat shops, and there were queues at everyone of them. Luckily the first one we went to, had a booking system. So we left our numbers n names, and went around to see if there was any steamboat without too much of a queue. Eventually the conclusion was - Never eat Steamboat on a Sat nite without making a booking. But luckily just as we were resigned to eating at Mos, the lady called with a table.

Though we had to sit at the outdoor, the soup (herbal n milk) were good! Herbal for me and milk soup for Tab. We had a good time eating mainly prawns and pork, beef slices. The meat was very thinly-sliced. Just throw it in, wait a short while, fish it up, dip into garlic with soya sauce then a bit of sesame oil. UMAI! Wah dam shiok. Its been a while since I've ate steamboat. The last time was at least 2yrs back, and not buffet style some more. The soup tasted even better after the meat went in. Though it costed $20 and can only eat for 2hrs, but we still ate until very full. Yum yum.

Today is another long beginning to the week. Had some training that lasted from 2.30-6pm! Another day wasted, not being able to mark again. Then tom cant mark much cos no free time, got remedial and activity.... Help..... Basket, if only I have a car to dabao the books back, then MC on one day to clear the crap. Now is like trying to use all my free periods n anytime I have to clear it that makes me damn tired. Plus everyday go off near to 6pm, reached home around 7.30pm is not exactly less tiring. BUBU F(*&$#(7 work.

CNY Resolution - to finish reading that Technical Analysis book b4 31st Dec 2007!

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Thanks friends and a hardworking weekend

Firstly thanks to my friends for giving me another round of treats. Woah is this how the rest of the birthdays go? Haha anyway its very much appreciated, though I am a bit stoned on friday.

Yar its been a hectic week cos cca-wise competition started, coupled with remedial, meeting as well as the numerous committe works with ultra short deadlines, plus ca papaer setting, all zapped all the time and energy I could muster. The belated birthday dinner and drinks thereafter are a welcome reprieve and energy/sanity/morale booster. Yep that's wat friends are for I guess. Thanks again, some happy memories of shaking on a rocking chair, sipping Tiger draft. If only it was a beach with stars in the sky... Aaaaa.... zzzz

There was just so much work that on Sat, despite my strong resistance and reservations, I headed back to do marking. Managed to clear 2 piles. Phew. This week would be even worst. With impending CAs, plus competition on 3 days, 1 day remedial and 1 day course, I am fully-booked everyday after lessons.

Then on Sat, after work around 1pm, i headed down to Orchard. Intended to jio Tab but she concussed in bed. So I wandered from Far East to Forum, eventually ending up in Tanglin Mall for lunch then walked back to Takashimaya. Saw a very peculiar sight. Basically a tall and slim man with alot of stubbles, long hair tied in a ponytail, with pink dyed fringe, wearing a pink gown, with cheap flip-flops. My eyes!!!!! =Q= Why is it I never see shuai ges in Orchard one, see weird guys.... bubu

Then still on Sunday got work to do. Besides the normal thing call lesson plan, there is this committee program sheet to do, sent on sunday, due on monday, duh, plus WS to mark and lastly answer key for ca paper. Bubu, I finally manged to maple today, after an entire week of absence.

Like wat I've said to Tab,

"I have no life... "
"Yar u only maple at home right."

"No I dun even have a 'no-life' to maple at home. I havent mapled in a week."
"Man you really have a no life to have a no-life"

"....."

Well now left with answer key and worksheet marking. Think clear one more. Rest chuck to tom free period. May tom be over soon and the next glorious weekend come quickly.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Pui no life, pui pui pui =Q=

Its been a month and 1 day into the term and I am ready to collapse.

Every single day is 7.15pm to at least 5.30pm plus.

Within the entire month, the earliest I've left was 4pm on one day. And my lunch hr is a no-affair. Just a few mins, a few bites b4 I have to run off for another thing.

The heavy cca and numerous duties meant that I cant finish even my marking. Its been accumulating so much that I am seriously considering going against my principles and heading down on this coming Sat to clear it once and for all!!!!

=Q=

but I am dragging my feet. Cos I dun want to delay giving back work due to it being unmarked. Yet I am GREATLY reluctant to go back! Bubu!!!! sobz...

Going very sian here, going crazy with the load.

If I do not stay this far from my workplace, at least I can hop down easily and save on travelling time daily.

2hrs a day can do wonders. In a month, I would have saved 44hrs and tonnes of money.

The daily taxi ride averages $8.50-$9.00. In a week, I could have bought either a new top or a new pair of jeans or shoes or eat 3 nice meals or buy an mp3 player in 3 months. Ultra sian!

2 things I used to remind myself whenever I got sian of this job. The two things that surpassed the banks jobs from before.

Firstly the dress code is just presentable and can wear PE attire most of the time. I am using as much excuse to do so. Previously it used to be good, cos I could hop straight down to the gym around 3pm-4pm without having to change. NOW, I am in the same outfit from dawn to near dask, have no time or energy or too hungry to go into the gym. So the enjoyment is lost.

Secondly, the other thing was that NO MATTER how late I stayed last time, when I left, there is still daylight. And nighttime wasnt so nearby. There was still daytime left. The day has not finished yet. The bank jobs previously entailed going in when the sun had just risen and coming out at night. NOW, when I left my home, the sun hasnt risen yet, when I reached home, its already dusk. So the other sole reason is lost.

Basket its not that I dun want to leave early. When there is cca, meeting, marking and more adminstrative duties, I cant bloody hell leave though I really want to.

WTF is this type of work. It is evolving into another bank job. The other newer collegues are also complaining of fatique and never-ending work and late hours. All signing there. Sian!

Bloody hell only down by 1mth. It feels like an eternity cos every single day lasts so long. Fish it.

Sign where is my salvation?