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BATIK SARONG STRUGGLE OF EPIC PROPORTIONS

Another first, staff dinner. Actually I had encountered D&D in two of the banks I worked with. The first one allowed temps to go but felt pointless so didnt go. The other was not open to temps/interns so didnt go. Just joined then also. Oh well, the dinner theme was Batik. I was wondering out loud earlier why wasnt it Gothic. I would have rather dressed gothically than batikically. Hence in the prior two weeks before, had to look for something batik to wear. Borrowed a batik scarf from Candle and managed to buy this super cheap batik sarong for $5. Problem solved!

Today I played Gunbound until six plus then I got ready for the dinner. Okay so I wear my ladies sandals, my black sleeveless top, my three piece metallic choker, a scarf and my sarong. Hmm think that will do. Okay all this happened in my brain while I was dressing. The look seems okay...

ONLY that I cant frigin wear the sarong properly!!!!!! I had neglected to address this potential problem earlier... Man, i cant seem to keep it tied neatly or stay properly. Kept tying and re-tying for 20 mins! Its seven already. Shoot, not enough time for taking bus, still have fifteen mins to try to wear sarong. $#^*

Ingenuity strucked me and I came up with a solution. Guess what it is?

No... I didnt use safety pin to pin it up.

No... I didnt wear it on my head as a turban though I thot of that but was put off cos I dunno how to tie turban.

No... I didnt use Candle's scarf as a bandana and go there dressed as a hippie, though I was sorely tempted cos just wear a top and jeans under....

The answer: A belt.

Okay, who ever wears a sarong with a belt? For the record, me. Yes and I am proud of it. So I struggled to get the front looking neat and belted the sarong. The belt I used is the sliding lock type. Then I hid the belt and the sarong top under my top. Perfect! Luckily got it ready in time. Hop onto a cab and headed there. Chatted with the taxi uncle and told him abt batik theme. He commented nice esp if got figure??? Huh? (Okay I just gel a bit of my hair and no make-up, not to mention the belt and even wearing something underneathe the sarong....) Oh well. Arrived there and when I reached the place, hear the "wah..." There were some collegues waiting at the door. So signed in and went to my table. My mentor commented nice... (Really....sign)

Heard the other trainee comment. "I didnt expect u to come in a skirt"
"This is not considered a skirt" (if u knew how I wore it, its not a skirt lor)

"Didnt know that u can look so femine, nice choker"
"... oh so how is your day"

"Did u wear something inside the sarong?"
"Yes, jeans" (my three quarter jeans)

"U look very good, the sarong is too, nice scarf."
"Err thanks." (if u knew how much or should I say how little effort I took to get it ready...)

Then later a collegue came with entire bareback gown. Even I joined in the cat calls. Dinner commenced and got table prize for games - weighing scales! Just great, I got two at home so now I have another... Collegues joked that put one in bathroom, one in kitchen and one in living room. At the end, my mentor came and he wanted to exchange for hair dryer he won. He didnt mind, I didnt mind. Hence exchange. Commented nice again. So my conclusion is that I can dress but I just dun, and also provided I have all the necessary pieces in my inventory. Cos I am not those who goes shopping specially for something. Just take what I have and wear type. I think the fact that during the past ten weeks, I wore track pants, T-shirt and running shoes everyday except for two - my first day and the concert. Hence the visual impact is there. Cos the reference is only that style only. I think among ALL my Friends too. Makes me feel like an alien.

And that is the end of batik sarong episode.

Barbeque

Today is my last day of work until the meeting in late Dec. Finally a long holiday leave for me. Ever since I started working one year and four months ago, this is my FIRST official leave. Hurray for me. The good thing is that I am paid for this period. Yah!

Com meeting ended at twelve, but I couldnt leave early cos I promised a collegue to go to bbq with her and her students. So I hang and hang and hang around until three thirty. Managed to kill some time by hopping to a nearby mall to buy a magnetic weiqi set and a new transparent recorder. Going to practice that also during the holidays.

So me and her split the students into 2 gps to travel to the West Coast Park via public transport. On the bus, one kid showed me a page from a magazine that her friend handed her. Its a case about teenagers having sex with bf. I read it and mockingly asked all of them whether they had done it or not. Phew all denied. I better not unearth any BIG secrets.

When we arrived, we took quite a while to set up the bbq pits and some kids complained hungry. Then half marched off to the nearest Mac to eat. Sign... But half stayed back to cook and eat. I was busy setting up one of the pits. Phew, hot. Was cooking and cooking... Some kid nice to offer me drinks. Later when most have eaten, they noticed that I havent eaten and asked me. I did when it became less crowded, leisurely bbqing my taiwan sausage. I boasted to them that mine is better cooked than those sold at the pasar malam. In fact it tasted great too! Later I challenged some kids to cook a better chicken than me. Mocked their burnt chicken wings. Then the kid looked at me cook and said "burn burn burn..." Priceless.

In the end, cooked as much as we could but still way too much food left so at eight, promptly packed up and everyone dabao something home. I got bread, sweet potatoes and margarine. Hmm a windfall? Then we waited for the bus and for a parent to fetch. Just nice, the parent came and then shortly after the bus came. I watched them board and started walking home. Before the bus zoomed off, some students saw me, and waved. Waved back. The passion. On the whole, still an enjoyable bbq. But it took me quite a while to walk home and no wonder had a sore knee on Sat.

Holidays almost upon us.... Yay for us untrained not for the perms. Hmm seems after next monday, no more work until one more work meeting, the date is still undecided.

Tom is a holiday! cos results coming out and those not involved need not go. Maybe I should use the time to cut my hair and buy that elusive handphone... Sadly still undecided on the model... Still want a clam-shell phone but NOT Sam brand... Cos it was the phone which my former workplace, most if not all had Sam phones. At first the silver cover impresses but now it is associated with that sickening place. Hence I REFUSE to get a Sam phone. See how first lah.

Hmm collegues asked me what am I going to be doing for the holidays. In fact most of them are flying off somewhere, South Korea, Europe, China, Vietnam to name a few. Others are driving in to M'sia to Malacca, KL, Penang...

Where am I going? My answer Nowhere. Stay at home lor. No plans for this holiday. Then got to fix up passport in first week of Dec. Dun have much time to travel or what. Though not travelling anywhere, my holiday plans are tentatively

1) Watch my Gundam Seed Vcd 50 episodes, Fruit Basket
2) Finish some of the PS2 games that I currently play on weekends (Gotta save the world again)
3) Learn some software eg flash
4) Go JB CitySquare with Dad in car shopping at least once.
5) Practice guitar, recorder and maybe chess.

I always tell my friends that I save the world during my holidays. I guess gaming is my outlet. The story plot and animation are so complex and realistic that U really feel transported to an alternate reality, leading an adventure. It really opens up the mind if u play the correct games. Since RPGs are mostly moral with the good triumph over evil themes. Hence a RPG is much like watching an adventure movie, better still controlling how things proceed.

Anything else to add, well see more of the politics in office. Also asked my buddy about some of my observations, which he validated. Well his assessment of me was that I'll survive. I hope this is true.

School's out and the holidays are here. Unfortunately that only applies for the kids. The rest of us still have about two more weeks of pure admin work to do. Its another bureaucracy.

Man, the past week has been hectic, getting full relief schedules and rushing for Stomp rehersal. There were practice everyday and everyday got relief duties. Had to settle the class, run down to meet students for rehersals, run back up to check, run down. Up and down until my knees hurt at night. Furuidesyo! Getting old. Had no time for breakfast or recess. Just used five mins to grab a sandwich whilst I was running up and down. Hell, but I didnt lose any weight. *shrugs*

Some politics surfaced: The Head felt that certain items were not up to standard and would not advertise and promote us. Hence had a last rehersal to 'judge' which one to keep. I can see that the Head is trying to showcase the best but to have this elimination on the eve of the concert only serves to undermine the efforts of the performers. 2-3 weeks of preparation down the drain. In the end, only one item was cut. Mine was not, though in the Head's quoted example, did mention something that hints of disliking my item... But it was more of a hidden meaning, wonder if it is there or have I misinterpreted... On the actual day, there was some technical hiccup that prevented us from delivering a flawless performance. Though the students were disappointed, but just told them that its not their fault. Wonder if any recrimminations will be coming this way. Oh well, what the heck! Dun care much at this point. If the Head is sooooo great, go and put up an impressive item for all I care. My partner for the item mentioned that wanted to get some feedback, I just say nevermind lor, cos its over and the glitches were technical not the performers fault. See how things go the next week or so.

After a tiring and intense week, still cannot rest, cos sat got something on. Had duties to do. Got home around one-thirty, rested and left for Jap class at three-thirty. For jap class, had to try to draw the animals based upon the description (in Jap) and was laughed at by Krynnder and Tab for some of my drawings. Of course laugh back at theirs! Hey, I am not an artist, cant draw free-hand. Man, that was one week's quota of laughter. I guess we were laughing so loudly in class that Sensei came and looked at what we were drawing... *Grins* For all the teasing, I got the Kappa right! Take that!

Went home after cos both of them going out. For the coming function, managed to lay my hands on some cheap (batik) sarong @ $5 per piece. Just trying to figure out how to wear it for now. Too big a piece for the intended bandana or arm bands. Hmm, see how lah.

Snowing, Bum Aches and Snowfights

First day of the week and I slept very little. Tossing and turning around in bed. Its just one of those nights where u cant get to sleep. Your body is yelling at ya to sleep but the eyes and mind refuse to close. Then after a long while, unknowingly u drifted off to sleep only to wake up again, thinking "Eh? Did I fall asleep just now? I thot just now I was still staring at the ceiling?" So begin a glorious day and my alarm clock rang. Did the usual routine to go to work. Again I will only know my schedule after I climbed up to the Hall.

"Man, its a full day of relief again. What to do to entertain them huh?" Then assembly started. "What! Concert during my only free periods... NOOooo!" So begins a glorious day at work. Basically just sit in, get them to do their own things or play with bearable noise level. Then inbetween classes and my break time, went for the Stomp rehersal. Overall quite good, but need some areas of improvements. Felt quite drained until the end of the day.

Manage to go to SnowCity foc after classes, despite the many hiccups. Some political in nature, some due to planning and weather. Its pretty small though, two sections: A playground and a slope. Play the slope with students. Had to climb up the steps to the top, then lock arms and slide down. Quite a fun ride, a bit bumpy at the end. Played around 5-6 rounds. Asobidesuyo! Its like going down a slide and u accelerate until u reach the bumpy end u shake uncontrollably and end up in a pile at the end of the slope. Lemme see, I landed hard on my bum, hit my hand, hit my head and even slide down on the bumpy and icy patch with my bare back. Ouch! U know how when u lose control, things start going haywire. Ur bum instead of being balanced nicely in the tyre, it came loose when the tyre hit the bumpy part and the next thing u know, u are sliding down on your back, worse still your shirt flares up and its your bare skin! Enjoyable nevertheless, and I didnt even scream at all. I was smiling and laughing all the way down.

After I had enough of sliding, I went to the playground and tried to scrape together some snow. (There is not that much snow, just a thin layer.) There was a snow war! Educators vs Monkeys. At first no one targeted me. Then they noticed me and I climbed up the slide, then kena all-out war! My buddy was already in combat, catching Monkeys and swinging them around, whilst the rest of the troop tried to 'rescue' or shoot some more snow. Soon I was in combat. At first just a couple dared to tackle me. Hahah but I got the last laugh, cos I caught them and lifted one (boy and girl alike) and swing them around. (remembers wrestling moves on tv. Can be used on little monkeys) While I did that, most scatter. But after a while, they realized that I can only tackle at most two at one time, so they work in teams. While those few are struggling within my grips, the rest took the opportunity to put snow on my head, in the hood of the jacket which slided down my back... So its payback! But one cannot outgun so many. I went down fighting valiently to the bitter end. I think I was surrounded by more than 6 at one point. Man, but after they scatter, its revenge. (Later my buddy told me that he would wait until now to initiate his revenge on the naughty/attitude ones.) So there were only 4 Educators vs 80 Monkeys. Suffice to say, most put up a brave fight, me and my buddy fighting hard. (Earn bravery medal)

After all the games, still had enrichment for them. Due to some hiccup, all of us havent eaten our lunch and its cold so all famished at this point. As Educators, we sneaked out of the conference room to eat whereas the hungry Monkeys had to continue to make their own ice-cream experiment. Some saw us eating, and gave us the 'Ohhhhhh u r eating look' with finger pointing and wide eyes. Man, what a sight to die for. I was drinking then, so I pretended to be enjoying my food a lot, of course, much to their envy. A hungry man is an angry man indeed. Most of us are famished. Reached home around 6.30pm today. Long day. It really feels like a friday instead of a tuesday. All of us are counting down til this Friday. Not that there wont be work, but there wont be school. Tom is another day of Stomping and relief duties. Nevermind as long as I dun have to entertain them.

Bored At Home, Raining

I am bored. Bored to death. Its a Saturday n I didnt go out. I've nothing to do, no plans or anything. Slept and laze around until eleven. Went out and bought lunch for family members. Eat, sleep some more, play a couple hours of PSII and I am STILL bored. Its raining and cold. Malay neighbour gave some malay food for Hari Raya. Ate malay food for dinner. Stared at computer, dun feel like doing anything. Nothing interesting online to do... Went out to 7-11 to buy bread and toilet-rolls. I am bored.

Nothing seems interesting or worth doing at this point. Dun u experience this sometimes, when u are just bored silly, nothing seems to perk u up. Feels very unsettled, want to do something but dun know what exactly to do. So one goes around the house and start doing things like washing the dishes, cutting and eating watermelon, go to a nearby provision store to buy staples... and its late at night, yet still feel very bored and listless.

Didnt want to go out today cos of the rain and am sick of taking public transport. Sometimes I get de javu from riding trains and buses almost everyday. There is a period of time when I had to 7 days a week. Well the good thing is that this day is almost over. It will be bedtime soon... but the emptiness of the day is still strongly felt. I wanna chill out but dun want to stay out too long, or late or travel far. Too much to ask I guess, well then I have to use my imagination to travel or if I can, let the spirit leave the body and roam around. I guess even with that, I wont know what exactly I want to do at all. Its just one of those days that can be sumed up with one word: DUH. The good thing is that school is closing, and a long holiday in another 3 weeks. Just a bit more to go, hope the last week can go smoothly without a hitch. Still got Stomp performance to refine. If did not have duties, can join students and buddy going to SnowCity, a class trip. Hope I can go, havent been there before... and its free!

Things worth remembering for the past week:

Class had a 'Salad-making' competition. One of the criteria was that the salad must be edible. Hence students are challenged to eat their own handiwork. But the class educators have to taste from all the groups. So I ate yuogurt-soaked melon, apple slice, celery, green cherry and a piece of chilli. Sign. I was busy on fri so didnt eat much. After eating the above, lost my appetite for anything else. On the lighter note, after seeing their educators eat their salads, the rest of the class tucked in. :) Lucky already fri so got stomache also nevermind.

Went to jap class with Kheldar, at first had to meet her at 5.30 but she had tuition at 6, hence I decided not to meet her for dinner and took a nap. Woke up late and rushed to class, met J, a fellow Educator. Her load is a full Educator load. And we were sharing stories about our own experiences. Definitely an eye-opener. Felt lucky that my current load is still okay. Next year, things would be different. Then after we walked to suntec, I had the worst luck in trying to find my dinner. Went to Subway, closed. Went to Hans, closing and not taking orders anymore. Went to Suntec, all the stalls in the food court closed. To top it off, just as we were making our way to burger king, the gate closed on us. Had to make a detour to the other exit and make our way back to the burger king. Damn! Had to settle for a burger meal. Salmon burger. Had a short debate with Kheldar upon the best meanst to eat salmon. The best in my opinion, is to fry it in oil with a bit of onions and chilli. Taste great. Err but the salmon burger was a bit salty and dry. But hungry so bo bian. Man, ever since the S11 near the National library closed, its been difficult to find some decent food at late hours.

Just finished watching 'Super-Size Me' Vcd I bought yesterday. Man, it has successfully put me off McDon and maybe softdrinks for another month. I will not touch any of that toxic. When I first saw it, I was off all fast food for a month. Maybe I should watch it again next mth. (will definitely help me lose some weight) Gonna bring it to work and show to everyone. Heheh dun expect them to eat anything for a mth or so too.

Until this friday, it would have been 2 mths as an Educator. The current load is way lighter compared to the fully-trained Educators. But what the heck, I'll be there in another one n a half year. So lemme enjoy while I still can. Not to mention they are not paying me the full-trained salary to take on the full load.

But since certain no of Educators in my workplace are going to be on leave and stuff, so workload or shitload is going to increase. So it will entail me doing stuff like lesson plans, teaching, marking homework, cca, reports and stuff... Just keeping my fingers closed that I can still have time to do things I like.

Well today went off to work and everybody is involved in doing a big report. But since I just joined, sure hell dun have any clues on what's going on. Not to mention help out. Some sort of internal assessment. Man, didnt know Educators have so much 'extra' stuff to do. Sure not being paid enough??? (Well that's what my buddy always say) So for the entire day just sit at my table, tidy it, read my Jap level 1 book, come up with some idea on the 'Stomp' performance, listen to my team's discussions then going home. Very fruitful huh?

Well today went to the gym, got some tips from the instructor about exercising and correct methods of training for maximum effectiveness, but hell my posture is all wrong and yet posture is everything... Oh well, I shall monitor my posture and try to do the weights and machines correctly. The interesting thing though was that he told me that if u train wrongly, u end up bulky with ugly shape. The weight of the weights dun matter.

Tom is going to be a long day, cos some collegues not around. Taking the entire cca alone. Then have the 'stomp' rehearsal to try out and yet still might have to take relief and go thru exam paper. A bit xian leh and its only tuesday. But for all the little incidences, it still dun feel like I am doing work. Maybe cos I dun have marking. I guess still at honey moon period? Now charging both my batteries and phone.

Hmm today is a good start to the work week. Though had to wake up early, but no CCA, light duties = free time to do a bit of reading, as well as make some changes to the admin work project from previous marking week. A bit of problem so had to do some amendments and hand in for 'approval'.

When I reached my workplace, a collegue, commented that she wondered how much would she pay to see me wear skirt. Huh??? Me, wear skirt!?! U got to be joking. I wondered out loud with her, that MANY of my friends will saving to see that too. (huh? I was wearing a sleeveless top with track pants and sport shoes... what's wrong? *shrugs*)

I just told her good-naturedly, "Keep saving... I will consider it. My friends are still saving..."

Err the other two untrained educators like me, also on an earlier occasion told me that they have a special request...

"Hey, we have a special request..."

"....... yes?"

"If we get married, will u be our bridesmaid so that we can see u in skirt..." (glee)

"....Err u can wait lor... Most prob, I'll wear pants, WHO ever declare that bridesmaid MUST wear skirts. My friends are still waiting lor...." (sign... why people who have never met all think only about that same one thing? There are more impt issues out there to tackle than me wearing skirt or not..... duh)

Well back to today, the day ended normally and I messaged Kheldar to go downtown cos I wanted to check out some board games to stock up on. In the end, what caught our eyes were more of toy percussions, guitars, make-ur-own badges etc, instead of board games. We came out pretty empty-handed. But had to wrestle and coax Kheldar thru the candy section...

Ended up in Sakae Sushi for buffet. Ate like 16+ plates, a record, given my norm was 5 at one sitting. Well since its a buffet so just eat like crazy. Mmmmm, unagi sushi and gyoza are good! Coupled with hot tea and miso soup on a cold and dark rainy afternoon. End it with 4 mochi ice-cream. It's totally blissful. When was the last time I had such a GREAT feeling. Heheheh not to mention, we sms Candle and Quetzal to disturb them. Hahaha. Well its a good feeling to be out. Cos though my work ends earlier compared to the past, but I had to rush for others. Never seem to have much time for myself. Even sats was more for japanese lessons than for outing. This, is what it feels like to really go out. Goal-less and all the time in the world and all shops open with little crowds. Man it feels great. Esp if u know how many pple are pissed with u when u tell them that. Oh well, after a fabulous lunch/dinner that stretched from 4.oopm tol 5.30pm. After a satisfying meal, we went jalaning around.

Tried my luck at this vending machine for 'Nightmare Before Christmas' and got 2xPumkin heads and 2xFreaking Ugly Barrel. Duh the Barrel head figure was so freaking ugly that when I offered to Khledar, she flatly refused. It is also of a repulsive texture, that when I used it to rub Kheldar's arms, she shivered in disgust. Hahahah, u should see her expression also. I remarked that I should keep one on my table as a tailsman to ward off foul creatures. Its really ugly enough to do so. So in the end I managed to chuck one into the bin and keep one. In the end, I gave the two pumpkin heads to sisters who love nightmare before christmas, and kept that one repulsively ugly head to bring to my work place. They also found it damn ugly. If only I had a camera to take the pic of it but it'll will be a waste of bits and memory space.

Later we walked past the Subaru Challenge. Pitied the contestants who are wet through from standing in the rain. But a Subaru cost around $100k with COE. So it'll be a good catch if one can win one. But lucky i did not participate, cos if i do, I will make sure I win despite the costs. I dun back down such a challenge.

Due to my malfunctioning phone, we went into a Hello shop and came out empty-handed. Though my hp is only one more charge into phone heaven, but I dun really see any models that I really wanted. Not really keen on the models displayed. "A phone is a phone, is a phone." Nothing more. But not keen on a basic phone so that I can use the cam phone to take pics, but not too lousy that the pic appears blurred. So I'll just use my dying phone until it kongs off or when I am merciful enough to give it phonetenesia and send it to phone heaven.

Since we are near Hereen, hoped in too. Managed to buy some very nice Gackt pics for my sis birthday present. Phew. Didnt had the time to buy her something she liked. Not to mention, I dun really know what she really liked... (Okay I stink as a sister. I dunno what my sisters really liked. Only a brief understanding or remberance) So she liked them, commented nice. Ya! Cos if she didnt like them, I would have gladly kept them for myself :) They are VERY nice, u see. I got good taste. She commented expensive though, well its not everyday right. And she is not spending rite. Just keep lah. "Money earned but not spent, is as good as toilet paper." Oh, just next to that shop where I bought the pics, was a candy store. We never made it past the shop, cos the delicious smell drew Kheldar in. Who wrestled with the decision to buy or not to buy. Well just told her to buy lor. So she did. 100+ grams of sweets. Then she's happily munching and chewing candy whilst we made our way around and to Kino. Sugar-high. Hmm me? Nah I'll pass... the mochi ice-cream is already enough. Not to mention, just on sat, met Kheldar and we shared candy which I still regretted cos after the first bite: Everything elses is just either TOO sweet or TOO much sweets... Arg! I have a sweet/sugar quota. If I take too much, I will have a sugar-sickness instead of sugar-high. I will just go "arg! too sweet, tooooooo sweeeeeet...... puke :)

While we were in Kino, and browsing through the tarot cards. Chanced upon a divination book that u just ask the qns and flip to the page for the answer. Not good response...

Q: How will I fare in my current job?
A: U will make it up as u go. (huh? so i just bluff my way through?)

Q: Will I ever get married?
A: What are u waiting for? ( huh?!?!?!? There isnt anyone unless u count my admiration for Gackt and many anime characters.... Any hiding males please reveal yourself to me.... Duh...)

Q: Will I retire rich and young?
A: Dream on (or something like that, so at this point, I wanted to burn the book)

Last Qn: Will I marry the one I really love?
A: Very Negative, forgot..... (Argh! I really wanted to jump on the book and burn it in kerosene)

Shindekudasai kono baka to kuso hon desuyo!!! (Die u stupid and shitty book!!!)

It was a good outing in a long while. Cos its been really long since I did something like this. There is no crowd, all the time in the world, all the shops are open. So we met at 2.30pm and I left around 9.30pm.