For the Child**n

Yar that's the cliche answer and sole reason most of the more experienced in my line says whenever they talk about the difficulties encountered by work, be it stressed, work-blues, admin overload, crappiness reloaded and the familiar why-the-hell-am-I-here-if-not-for-the-bond-thingy mood sets in. Today is no exception. Dun want to delve into the details but I dun really agree.

True enough, we are responsible for them, hence we give our best. Yet at times even the best is not enough, also the fact that we are human, fatique, negative feelings will drain our energy levels that it might not always be the best. Then disliking something means having to overcome yourself to do the task and also digging in deep to find the energy to continue. There are times when it is just empty inside. Just telling me FTC is not enough. Its like a self-deluding reason.

The reason is, the first time you hear this reason, you are not convinced. Then soon enough after many times of hearing it, you somewhat accepted it as a reason, whether convinced or not is another matter. More time later, you will find yourself saying the same thing to another fellow collegue. Just telling me that is not enough. The adminstrative hiccups, burps and certain crappiness of the work doesnt stop or reduce. The mental anguish, frustration, disappointment, fear, anxiety dont just go away nor am I convinced. How is one even aware if one is FTC? To what extent is FTC? and also its lame lah.

An interesting and amusing matter regarding this FTC, though was sometime ago, a retired collegue chatted with me and told me that I should not let work get to me such that I end up missing the boat cos I devoted too much time to them, work long hours everyday. She says ten, twenty years down the road, will regret cos its not worth it. With the children you teach, you wont see them and end up old and lonely. But with your spouse, you found a soulmate, at least someone there. She mentioned she has seen collegues whom ended up this path of lonliness and regret. A refreshing thing to hear after so many repeats of FTC, FTC.

I dont deny a genuine reason is FTC but I dont believe that is the sole answer to all the suffering endured. For those who subscribe to FTC, I sincerely hope that it will pull you through the tough times. For those like me, still searching. Hope to find my own sets of reasons to motivate and continue on.